a good year... hopefully
The THS girls varsity team had their first scrimmage this morning. The outcome? 2 wins, 2 ties, and 0 loses. Not bad for a team who only won three games last year. Maybe we'll actaully be decent this season... i certainly hope so.

Yay! Dashboard Confessional won an award for "Screaming Infidelities"!!!!! Wooohooo!!! they are so great! GO DC!

unanswered
what do you say when everything is on your mind, yet no words come? what do you do when you cry, but have no idea why? I have so many questions, yet no one to ask. How can you cheer up when nothing in particular is wrong but everything is? How can I love someone so much, even though they have caused me so much pain? Why do I only notice things when they're gone? Why does my town make me so unhappy? How can I feel like I'm drowning when there's no water? Why is this life so hard? Is anyone really living? Or do we all lead superficial lives? Why do things seem so bad when there is so much to be happy about? Is anyone out there? Does anyone really care? Then why is there great void of emptyness?

((sniff sniff)) ewwwww!!!! I smell from soccer... blech, yucky....

mmmm..... slurpees are good......

Lets go Metro! ((clap clap clap clap))
Yay! the metrostars won their game today against DC United! Woohoo! ahhhhh, so exciting. Carly took me to another soccer game yet again, Metrostars this time though and not Power. It was very exciting, but we ended moving back into the shade because the the sun was being very hot today. I'm so glad we won though, becase the game would have been such a dissapointment if they lost, but thankfully they scored a goal during stoppage time... if that a great ending to a game or what? Of course Clint Mathis was the scorer with Ferara (sp?) getting the assist.... soo sweet =) In other news... the garage sale went pretty good, they sold a rainbow bright doll though, and i don't know if that will be okay with my sister when she finds out. They also sold our deck furnature (yes i know i'm a horrible speller), so i don't know if we're getting new stuff or what... humina... ok, my life is boring so go read something else now. =)

realization
yeah, so i was reading over some blog entries that I wrote during gov school, and I realized that I wrote down way too much stuff that just shoulda stayed in my head. "So why don't you just edit it out?" I can hear you people say.... I dunno... I feel like that would take away some of the purpose of a blog... thats just me though...

addicted
who woulda thought that playing games online could become so addicting? It all started out with Text Twist at gov school... Then when I got home, i explored all the other Yahoo/Shockwave games because i was so bored (hmm... who does that sound like? ::coughcoughJamiecoughcough::) So then came collapse, bounce out, crosswords... I know its such a waste of time, and that I really should be doing work.. but its so freakin addicting! And then tonight, or should I say early this morning, I started playing Boggle online with my sister and her boyfriend, which i must say is a lot of fun when your kicking butt. And... ::yawn:: ...oh wow, I am so tired... must... make... it...... to......... bed..........

soccer! futbol! football! fuBball!
so today was the first day of preseason... I must admit that I wasn't really looking foward to it because our coach is so easy. But I met our new ass't coach for the first time, and I love her! Her name is Krista Bowdo (i don't know if i spelled that right), she graduated from Glenrock High in '95 and went to the University of Illinois. It really cool though cause i know her highschool coach, Tracy aka Trebo, who was a coach at my old soccer camp, GOALS. but anyway, Krista is really great, she runs with us and pushes us hard.... I'm really looking towards soccer this year now. I felt so bad though, a combination of the heat, me being not in the best shape, and getting some blood drawn earlier made me really dizzy, so i wasn't playing very well.... I was so pissed off, but oh well, tomorrow is another day. =)

for lack of a title
hmm.... I seem to not be blogging as much anymore.... I guess the excitement wore off. Oh well... So lets see what's been happening the past couple days...
Thursday: got my senior pictures taken. two words, very stressful.
Friday: Saw "Signs" with ray. I really liked the movie... It was very.. real, i guess you could say. And I liked how everything tied together at the end. Bad endings can always ruin great movies.
Yesterday: Well, I was supposed to get together with a bunch of GSE people, but that ended up being called off. A bbq was planned for that day anyway, so we went ahead with that and just made it a family/friends thing... I have to say that i had a lot of fun... it was really nice seeing some people again.
And that brings us to today. Today I went peach picking with my family. It was ok, but apple picking is so much better. And rotting peaches do not smell good. Well thats it with my boring life... Tom, from GSE, is having a party today, but i ahd no way to get up there.... oh well...

my stupidness
I'm such a dork. I really am. Its only been 2 days since i've gotten my licence and I've scratched the car already. And it wasn't the crappy van or my sister's "piece-of-shiz" car, but the brand new Honda Civic Hybrid... damn, I must be that good. It was really stupid too. I was backing out of the driveway (as I always do) except I was rushing for some stupid reason and I back into my neighbors car parked across the street. Now I haven't really assesed the damage to my neighbors car yet, but i don't think it was that bad. I didn't see a dent when i looked back... but yeah. I really am a good driver though! argh, I think its just pissing me off so much because it was a stupid accident that was very uncharacteristic of me. Shiz.

someone got her licence today!!!!!!

NYC
the big apple is definitely one of the best places on the planet... sure, it was be dirty and loud and dangerous in some parts, but it's just so cool. Where else can you find the newest trends, the coolest hot spots, really good food, and the most diverse people in one place? Not to mention the best shows... I just saw Urinetown today, which was not a bad show... I've seen better though. It was funny though, and you definitely needed to have some previous knowledge of shows to get some jokes... I would recomend it to people though, not for full price, but if you get half-off tickets at tkts, it's definitely worth it... I spent the last 2 days in the city with my sister... seeing Urintown was one fo the things we did... we also went to Chinatown, which is a really cool place too... mmmmmmmm, we got some yummy food like sho-pow (phonetic spelling, have no idea what to actually spell the name), lychees (which were so sweet), and puto... yummy. I also got a fake spade... I think this is the first time i've ever bought a bag/purse/pocketbook, I'm not big on bags... but its cut and a little bit nicer than my black bag that i ususally use. ok, I'll stop boring you with my life now. later

double header
So about last night's games... They were pretty good, disappointing for both teams though. The Power ended up losing 1 - 2 to the Carolina Courage. It was a good game though, good to watch. We really should have won that game though, there were so many missed opportunities and we dominated almost all of the game... we just couldn't get the ball in the back of the net. I got some pictures signed, which was nice. But ugh... the guys that were sitting behind us were so annoying! that wasn't even their real seats! They were just lucky that the regular season ticket holders didn't come that day. Argh... I could have definitly done without their comments throught the two games. Ooo! another gross and horrible thing! These cheerleaders from long island performed during half-time! Now they weren't that bad, they're just cheerleaders... definitely not needed at a soccer game. Me and Carly are convinced that they jinxed the power... and after 5 days of 600 cheerleaders at GSE, they were definitely not welcome. But anyway... the metrostars v. crew game wasn't that bad either, i just wasn't really paying attention. Of course Brian McBride had to score his usual header-goal during the game, but thats okay cause he's on the national team and he's good looking... hahaha... one more Power game left though and that's it for the season... maybe they'll do better next year...

wooooooooooooohooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!
OH YEAH!!!! This is soooooo awsome! Wooh.. ok.. normal breathing resumed... So here's the deal. Today my friend Carly told me about this double header game tomorrow... NY Power vs Carolina Courage and then Metrostars vs... well i can't remember. but anyway, so i was about to call for tickets when Carly comes online and says that she has free tickets for me! and their right in the center of the field! How awsome is that!?! See, she has season tickets to the NY Power games, and the other season ticket holders that sit next to them said that they weren't going to be able to go, so they gave her family the tickets! Aaaaaa.... so excited! okay okay... time to take a shower...

Memories
Today wa a good day. For most of it, I hung out with my friend Sara from GSE. It was really fun. We went walking/hiking/exploring on the trails along the Hudson River, got food at Whole Foods, sat by her pool for a little while, drove around some semi-senic routes... all good stuff like that. Plus, I we got to play on swings for a little while. Ahhh.... I love being a kid. Don't you? I don't really want to grow up cause horsing around is so much fun... And tonight I watched the "Royal Tenenbaums" with my friend Emma. It was a pretty good movie, I expected it to be more dunny than weird though... Weird/messed up humor is definitly great though. Ok, gonna hit the sack, gotta be up early tomorrow to go watch a Power game with Carly...

I ' m s o b o r e d . . . . . .

awww
So I hung out with a bunch of GSE people today, and I realized even more how much I miss all of them. Quick send out of my love to Jon, Tracy, Dong, Jamie, Matt, Dave, Carly, Ashley, Angela, Viv, Lydia, Cheryl, Aibo, Tom, Dan aka BC, Sarah, Alex, Kapil, and everyone else. (I didn't foget anyone did I?) So basically we hit Willowbrook Mall, went to Jon's house really quickly, went to dinner at Applebees, and then went back to Jon's house. And in between got lost, which can actually be sorta fun =) woah der, look at the time, Someone sorta has practice at 9 tomorrow morning... or should i say later today? G'night all.

pondering Christianity/Catholicism
*for those non-religious people, this postgets a little religiousy, just warning ya*
So I just finished watching the movie "Stigmata" for the second time... It's quite a good movie, I would recomend it to everyone. It really makes you think though. Quick synopsis: A girl (Frankie) recieves a rosary as a travel gift from her mom, and as a result, she starts to suffer from Stigmata. For those who don't know what stigmata is, when a person suffers from stigmata, they supposedly recieve the wounds of Jesus from when he was crucified. So anyway the movie is about Frankie and this priest's investigation of her stigmata. The part that's really sticking in my head right now is the issue of St. Thomas' Gospel. St. Thomas' Gospel is supposedly the actual words of Christ that he said to his disciples the night before He was crucified. In short, the gospel says something to the extent of Christ is inside of you and all around you. Another part of this movie talked about how the Church (Catholic Church) wanted to destroy this alleged gospel. Now I don't know much about St. Thomas' Gospel, I'm actaully looking into right now on the web, but I could see how this would cause problems with the Church. It's too much to elaborate on in writing... talk to me if you really want to know. It just makes me think more about how I classify myself. As a lot of people know, I was raised Roman Catholic. However, I have not called myself a Catholic for quite some time now. When people ask, I simply say that I am Christian. I can't really explain right now the problems I have with the Catholic Church, thats another long discussion not to be posted on the web. I just have so many questions right now...