"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense."
~Ralph Waldo Emerson

I haven't really felt like posting much of late. It's either: a)to much effort, b)I'm too tired, c)I don't feel like I have anything worthy to post, and/or d)Some things just can't be talked about in the public eye. My blog looks so bleak though, so I think I'll just put in some filler while I have a late night snack.

I must say that part B would be a good reason not to post right now. I went rock climbing tonight with Dan, and my arms are dead. It was a pretty bad climbing session. I only finished two climbs completely, and I think I attempted another two or three. To cut myself a little slack, I haven't been climbing since about December, so it's been a good seven months or so. It was still loads of fun though, and MetroRock was playing good music that I had fun bouncing around to while I belayed Dan.

"B" would also probably apply now because it's pretty late and I have to get up at 7am tomorrow. J's parents want her and her sister to be the last ones out of the house, so I have to leave when they do. (They're leaving at 8am to go camping in Canada, I am thoroughly jealous.) I just figure I'll have one of my Starbucks mocha frap thingy's and I'll be okay.

In other news, I'm heading back to NJ tomorrow. It would be very nice if I could get some beach time in while I'm at home. Or at least maybe some pool time. I think crashing Umar's house is in order. I might even come back next weekend too. Kat is talking about getting DMB/Barenaked Ladies tickets when they perform at the Meadowlands, and that is one concert I definitely don't want to miss. I just hope I don't get stuck in traffic. I'm planning to leave aroudn noon or 1pm, so that's a little iffy. Maybe I'll give in and take the Merrit Pkwy and/or the Tappan Zee bridge. I'll look over a map at breakfast and plan our my route.

Part C is applying right now... and so is Part D. The only other thing that I can think of it FOCUS, which is going well... sorta. On average, I've spent three hours in the office every day. Too bad I don't get paid. I'm all set on booking my two environment groups, but the three kids groups are proving difficult. Some places are just bad at getting back to me, a lot of places don't want short term volunteers, and even more places require CORI background checks, which cost more time and money (which we don't have). D&G and I have decided that we are going to tell next year's coordinators to form animal and elderly focuses, which I think would take a lot of the strain off of kids. To bad we didn't have the foresight to do that, but we were so rushed with the brochures. Well as they say, hindsight is 20/20.

"Everything here is eatable. I'm eatable, but that my children is called cannibalism and it is frowned upon in most societies."
~Willy Wonka, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005)

Great movie! Go see it!

Just finished reading HP 6. So sad...

"We are not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be."
~C. S. Lewis

"Carpe diem! Rejoice while you are alive; enjoy the day; live life to the fullest; make the most of what you have. It is later than you think."
~Horace

[[[delete delete delete]] I don't really know what to say right now... I actually find that I have that problem a lot. I have this feeling of things being unresolved on my life, but I cannot pinpoint what the specific problems are. Of course, I can pick out a few, but is that really all? A few small things? Probably not, life is too involved for a few small things to be the heart of the problem. Ah, I just found the perfect way to describe it. In Luke and Corinthians, they disucss "foundations." Not only of buildings and structures, but also of life. In my life, my foundation is God. So like any building, when the foundation is shakey, the entire building is rattled. The same applies to life I think, and I think I'm feeling some tremors right now. Overall I'm pretty good and happy, but there's still that underlying feeling of uneasiness. I think it is high time that I stop blabbing on and on, so I am going to defer to Jars of Clay once again...

looks a lot like givin' up
peace will bring is a bitter cup
set our bodies down like offerings
while we pray to the god of the lesser things

if the wind should shake this house apart
the cradle hits the ground with a broken heart
we will say we never knew a thing
while we pray to the god of the lesser things

is there grace for the wayward heart
is there grace for the wayward heart
grace, grace

ash to ash and dust to dust
steel on steel or rain to rust
what mortal breath blood money brings
forth from the altar of the lesser things

is there grace for the wayward heart
is there grace for the wayward heart is there grace, grace