mmmmmm...
dude... I am sooooooo full. It was my cousin Amaris' b-day today so we went out to this Brazilian Grill Restaurant out in Hackensack. The deal at this resaurant is that you paya flat price per person and then everone hs acess to the buffet. And while your pigging out on buffet food, you have this little cylinder-wooden-thingy thats painted red on one end and green on the other. While your eating, waiter-people walk aound with these huge skewers of meat, and when you want meat, you turn the little thingy so the green side is up, and when you don't the red side. It's pretty cool. .::cheesy grin::. ugh... I ate wayyy to much though... blleecchh... ok time to go to bed soon. g'night.

rip off...
So yesterday (tuesday night) I went to Yankee Stadium with my sister and her two friends to be extras in this Adam Sandler/Jack Nicholson/Marissa Tomei film called "Anger Management." I was really excited because I thought I was going to ave a realy good time, and that there was a big chance of me having my face in one of the shots. They also said hat there would be a lot of prizes raffled off, a lot of people would get Anger Management shirts, and that they wuld have stadium food available for the entire night. Right. It was such disappointment. We did about two or three shots the entire night (from 8pm to 2:30 am), and the shots didn't even really involve the entire crowd. The food stunk, only 20 or so shirts were given away, there were only 4 or 5 raffles, and this guy with a big head ruin any chance i had of being on screen. Argh, what a waste of time that I could of spent sleeping. And its not like i don't have a ton of work to do before sunday when i live for governor's school. hrumph.

ellipsis
man its late... or early depending on how you think. I just finished watching Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon. I really like it, the martial arts definatly kicked ass. And youalways gotta love movies with strong female characters. I was sorta disappointed that it didn't have a happy ending with the two characters getting together (i already forgot their names), but oh well, it was still a good movie. Plus, Chow Yun Fat (spelling?) is so much better than Jackie Chan. ok going to bed soon. argh. must start gov school e s s a y s t o m o r r o w . . .

randomness
I was just watching a recording of the play "Women"on chanel 13, and i have to say that it was quite interesting. quick synopsis: a woman with 2 kids finds out that her husband is having an affair, and the play basicaly revolves around tha entire issue. It was pretty interesting, and it also had a great cast, which is always a plus. It made me think about relationships again though... what doesn't make me think about relationships? Frankly, 'm just so tired of dating and whatnot. While there are times when I'd love to have a boyfriend and am sad that I don't have one, I don't know how i would actually deal with being in a relationship if i actually had on. It seems like a waste of time. As an author once said, what gives a person ownership of my time and my love and my feelings if its just short term and there's no chance of getting married? I dunno. Maybe I'm just old fashioned, which is pretty weird considering that I just finished Junior year of H.S. I think that today's society is to caught up with instant gratification, we have to do things now, we can't hardly wait for anything. But doen't rushing into things take the potential pleasure of what is to come in the future? hmmmm... And you can not say that I don't know what its like to be in "love" (if teenagers really know what love is at our age), because i was "in love" with someone for almost three years, and nothing came of it except tears. ahhhh, I'm being bitter again, and I'm starting to lectur, so let me stop.

I've decided that dashboard confessional is one of the best bands out there...
as for now were going to hear the saddest songs ... and wonder how you making out ... your hair its everywhere, screaming infielities and taking its wear...

tear...
we lost! we weren't supposed to lose! but its semi-okay, it was a good game. plus, we showed the world that we're actually a reputable team now, and that we have to be takn seriously. Donovan still kicks ass, even though he missed at least three good opportunities. And Arena should have put Mathis in earlier so we coul have had some more good shots. oh well. Go USA anyway! woohoo! hmm.... so who should i cheer for now? maybe I'll go for Korea just because they're the underdog...

strangly calm
wow. i think i just failed my history final. ok. maybe not failed. a D minus. i did that bad. the strangness is that I am suprisingly calm about it. i would usually be in tears right now. mmmmmm.... freaky.

What?!?
you have got to be kidding me. Jim win the 3rd spot on american idols? America, I have no idea what you were thinking. Maybe you voted for him to piss off Simon, but come on. What about Chris? or even Adrial for that matter? they were both so much better then Jim!!! sheesh...

Thoughts
beauty . tears . false-hopes . love . self-identity . fake . atificial . tears streaming down face . no one to understand . pain . hurt . longing. sobbing . desire . relase . fatigue . hair. stupidity . anger . overwhelmed . retreat . me . nowhere to go . help . please . somebody . silence

Only here
Hahahaha.... only in my town can you look out your living room window and see 4 cop cars and a mass of people yelling at eachother. I thought it was quite hilarious. There were these 2 or 3 girls screaming at eachother in the street one house away from me. 2 cop cars were already there, so there was no fighting or anything. All the while i'm watching very curiously because i have no idea what's going on. Then these guys from my H.S. walk up my block and then I see these guys hold other guys back... So there was almost a fight, but not quite, the cops actually had to push people away. sigh.... By this time there are 4 cop cars and about 20 or so highschoolers there, but everyone finally dispersed. And i still don't know what happened.... damn...

Na na, na na na na, hey hey hey, Goodbye!
YEAH! who won the game baby! the USA did! and they were such pretty goals too! McBride with the nice finish in like he 8th min, and then Donavon with a great header! woohoo! I'm am so excited! we were definatly not supposed to win, but we beat the odds and did! oh yeah! It was such a crazy game though, 10 yellow cards and 1 red card.... thats crazy! man, i love our team, they're so great! G O U S A ! ! ! !

Dead Zone
so the season premiere of "Dead Zone" was tonight. I have to say that I thought it was pretty good... I'm into the whole entire sci-fi thing... but the actors were good, and I got all teary during the scene where the doctor goes back to Vietnam and finds his mother... I'm such a mushball... geez. I should really g to bed now though, considering that i have a physics final tomorrow. I really want to stay up for the US v. Mexico game though, but it's not going to happen. wouldn't it be nice if the USA won? yeah right.

blah
So Ireland loses to Spain in the quarter-finals in a shootout... what a sucky way to win or lose a game... oh well.

GO USA
WooHoo! USA is advancing o semi-finals! you would not believe how excited i was in school this morning when i found out that portugal lost to Korea! So i woke up at 7:30 to watch th begining of the US v. Poland game, which got me so frusterated. 2 goals in the first five minutes of the game?!? that is absolutely riduculous! And what was up with the ref disallowng Donovan's goal! what a bad call! ugh but whatever, we're advacing anyway, so they better bust their butts for the rest of the world cup. I must say that portugal really deserved those two red cards though, or at least the first one... that was such a vicious tackle... but their out now anyway, what an upset. oh well. GO USA!!!!!

My gosh he's gorgeous
I just came back from seeing the Borne Identity wth Matt Dameon... and oh-my-gosh, he has to one of the most beautiful/handsome people in the world... hahahaha... my friend Laura and I were gaping during the scene where he just had a wife-beater on.... ooooo... he's so good looking. but besides him, I thought that i was a very good movie if you like action movies. According to my dad, the book is quite good also. Over all I would probably give the movie something around a 7 on a scale from 1 to 10.... our maybe an 8.5 just because Matt Dameon is so good looking... I know your laughing at me, but considering that I am not attached to anyone at the moment, I have every right to semi-obsesse about gorgeous movie stars. but seriously, go see it, it was good. you can stop laughing at my girliness now...

Relaxation at last... or at least until next week
finally got my math final over with... i'm actually happy that we took it a week earlier... less things to worry about next week. ::yawn:: but now i'm off to do an extra credut project for physics to pull my grade up.
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Woah...
Strangeness... I just heard from my friend Laura that out our principal was arrested last night for fondeling a 17-year old boy, how freaky is that? She says that she heard it on 1010Wins, so it seems pretty credible, I must look into it some more... wow... i'm quite shocked. Geez though, like our school doesn't have enough things wrong with it in the first place... but enough of this, i have to study formy math final tomorrow. Wish me luck...

Dating
ahhhh.... the game of breaking people hearts... maybe that's why I don't really date... or maybe it's just because n one has ever seriously asked me out before, i dunno. ya know, tell me if I'm stupid or something, but i think its quite stupid to have a new bf/gf every couple of months... that justs seems wrong to me... argh. I could just possibly be very frusterated with my "love" life right now. I should probably stop sitting here and pondering about it. But just n las thing. don't you love how you meet what you think is the perfect person and then realize that they are taken? it defintly sucks. As the great Alanis Moresette said in Ironic "It's meeting the man of your dreams, and then meeting his beautiful wife..." damn, well do i know...

Ahhhhh... another school day over. But does it ever really end? It's like THS has a freakin conspiracy to make me go crazy; heat in the summer, AC in the winter, gym in the hot boiling sun, teachers that bore you to death.... its enough to drive anyone insane. And of course we have to be one of the last schools to be let out... June 24th or something like that. I can't wait to graduate and escape from this so called "castle on the hill," but alas, i still have one more year left! argh, the pain of it all...
But besides all that... I had a great weekend. My friend emma was staying over so we played countless games of You Don't Know Jack, which is possibly the bet computer game in existance. I also had my first rehersal for all-state choir, which really kicks ass... too bad all of my roomies last year were seniors so i have to find new ones. Then there was my last game for spring soccer where we won 5 to 3. And finally on sunday was Ray's litte get together, where i had quite a good time... good flipino food, hackeysack games, ambushing a very unsuspecting Ray... even though some people are still somehow going to get payback for water they poured on me... mwhahahaha.... oh and in addition i met two nice new people, Mark and Kelly if i do remember right... I have to disagree with them though, I don't the the townies/acadamites/cotillioners were going to kill eachother.... maybe just maim...

Hmzzz.... welcome to my first b-log... like in many other situations, i have no idea why I'm really doing this... my reasoning is that I have always tried to keep a diary or journal of some sort, but it has never worked; and since i'm online all the time, i might as well keep a b-log as my journal. of course I'm not going to put down my deepest thoughts or anything cuase that would just be plain embarassing. so we'll just see how long this lasts. i give it about two months. i guess i really should be studying for finals right now, but you know me, the everlasting procrstinator. or maybe I'll go watch some world cup games, b/c after all, soccer is the best sport in the world! (go USA!!!) but i think i'll go be a good student and study... right....
oh and as a final note for today, i guess ray deserves a little credit for introducing me to bloging, thanks, it just took me a little while to catch on. it wouldn't have been true to my procrastinating form if i didn't wait a while...