woohoohoo..... i'm melting again... =D heeheheee

Tonight the Help the Homeless club of THS had their second annual New Year's Eve Eve party for SOS (shelter our sisters). It was actually really fun, more low-key thatn last years, but fun. =) the kids were adorable and their moms were really nice too =) its nice to know that you made someones day a little brighter =)

so you know what i did last night? or actually two nights ago looking at what time it is? I went to cryer's house and we did a puzzle... hahah, now how dorky is that? =) i actually had fun though =) between hording pieces from eachother and listening to the mullet song... i had a good, straightedged time =) its better than going out and plastering myself.... :P

one more application down... two to go...

we should have a national sledding day once a year.... so much fun! =)

its 2 AM and i'm not even really tired...

"how do i see u, i see u as a fun person, whos competitive, and considerate of peoples feelings, but u can be really insecure, realllllly insecure sometimes"

how do you see me?

screw those last two posts... (no, your not crazy. i deleted them) they were just cries for sympathy.... i'm still confused though...

DDR (dance dance revolution) is possibly the coolest game ever! if you have no idea what it is, click the link to find out a little about it. But anyways, they have a few versions of PS2, and me and my relatives were playing today, it was so much fun! (we were mostly using the brittney spears version, yes i know, i hate her too) considering that most of my relatives are older than 40, it was hilarious! I love my family =) and for only playing my first time today, i was pretty damn good... oh yea! =) but anyways, i hope your Christmases were as good as mine =)

I love midnight mass. The church is packed and everyone is in a good mood. The decorations are beautiful and the mood is merry. =) Anything and everything can be forgiven on Christmas. I was sitting by Darren, who i was a real b... female dog, to sophomore year. Methinks i was too emotionally immature. But anways, I had a real quick chat with him, and I feel so much better now... He's actually a really sweet guy and I think that everything is cool now =) I love Christmas. And It's snowing now too! =)

Merry Christmas Everyone!

best quote of the month:
"I was just licking ice cream off of the nuts!"

that was so insane...
Being the procrastinator that i am, I had to go to the mall today for some last minute shopping. Finding parking wasn't that bad, it only took about 10 minutes.... and we had a really good spot for holiday shopping. The actuall shopping wasn't even that bad. the lines were a tad long, but nothing drastic. But you know what was crazy? getting out of the freakin' parking lot. it took over an hour, literally, to get out of there. and then another 30 min to get home... that's absolutely ridiculous. I had the car in park for probably a half of the time that i spent in that stupid lot.... grrr.... it got so bad that the police blocked off the road so no one could enter the mall... Tis the season to be jolly...

what? I am so utterly confused.... how could i be flirting with someone and not even realize it? hmm.....

at least i know that i'll be gonig to a college.... (got Rutgers today)

stupid computer... or actually stupid internet connection... how does it expect me to do college apps when its so freakin slow and keeps stalling all the time?!?!!?!?!?!? ARRRGGHHHH!!!!!

final words
by far the best soccer dinner ever... I was actually dredding it at first, but it turned out to be a lot of fun... =) Baby Korn's video was so cute/sweet... i was close to tearing up =) I'm glad that we all got copies of it. Ahahaha, and the juniors gave us underwear with stuff written on it! how funny is that?!? definitely the best ever! oh and the blankets... and chairs... and photo albums... all so great =) Its hard to believe that its all over... all the team bonding... inside jokes (stop talking herpes!) ... after-school practices... night-games... wow. hahaha, and did you know that my book is called "Ways to play all 11 positions on the field without breaking a sweat"? =) ooo, and I got the MVP award, how sweet is that? despite all of my b-tching during the season... I really am going to miss these girls...

heaven... (doo doo doo)... I'm in heaven (doo doo doo)...

Screw Georgetown.

man. I am pretty damn insightful sometimes.
or at least i like to think i am...

"my gosh. he's perfect"

What's with all these fleeting crushes that i have? They're there one minute, and then gone the next. I think I just may be one of those people who "love to be in love." ...or maybe it's something else. While contemplating it one day, I came up with a few explanations. now keep in mind that i'm talking about a bunch of different people here...
1) He's just eye candy, and considering that there's not too many attractive guys in my school... well yeah, enough said.
2) Considering the horrible self-image that i have of myself, i melt when people compliment me. that, and it doesn't happen very frequently.
3) I somehow got the notion that this person liked me, and it made me like them.
4) One of my friends started to like them, so i started to like them.
5) I'm just a stupid, silly girl.
6) I am so unattached (and always have been) that I will latch on to almost anymore.
7) I'm just plain stupid.
They sound like pretty good rationals to me. I always end up thinking about that Drew Barrymore movie "NBK" (if you don't know what that acronymn stands for then... i dunno, figure it out), and think about how much that is me, and wonder if i'm that big of a dork. Or do i just happen to be really good at making people not like me? And then there's my idea of not dating untill of marrying age ("Why shop when you can't buy"). And then there's also me being jealous of my friends... and my sister... and pretty much everyone in general. But envy is one of the seven deadly sins isn't it? so i guess i'd better stop before kevin spacy hunts me down and kills me...

could i be any more out of shape?

This watch belonged to my father. It's broken now, but it used to keep perfect time. And when he gave it to me, he said, "You could set your heart by this watch." It stopped October 1st -- the day we met.

you call this a gala?
ah, the moment we had all be waiting for, the re-opening of the THS auditorium... riigghhhtt... anyways, we (the madrigals) had to sing... not bad, could've been worse... could've been a lot better. oh well. Hunter Foster and Jennifer Cody (What a cute couple) from Urinetown performed a number for the gala. Why you ask? because they live in Teaneck. I'm just pissed i forgot to bring my playbill, cause i couldn't asked them to sign it. The Loren Daniels Trio was good too even though his mic seriously needed to be upped. Drummer dude was not bad looking at'tall. The Brown Family was pretty good too, i really liked to the song they played... now only if it wasn't for Dr. Wiederman and his long, drawn-out speeches....

a tradition in the making...
for the second year, the THS madrigals (or at least some of us anyway) sang at Applebee's for the breakfast with Santa. It was actually pretty fun, despite the fact that i had to be at Applebee's by 8:30 am, which is wwwaayyyyy to early. The little kids there were really cute. I wish more people showed up though, over half of the choir was missing. :/ ah well, screw it...

I love snow. Its so peaceful and calming. As I once heard, it acts like a sort of blanket, it covers everything and purifies everything it touches... =) for the firt time in abot 2 or more years, i went sleding. It was definitely the most fun I have had in a while. I went with my friend Emma over by Adam's house (I guess thats Lincoln Ave). Definitely had to bail out a few times, but it was all good... despite the fact that I couldn't feel y butt afterwards =) i was definitely hoping for a snow day tomorrow... but by the looks of things, I don't think it's going to happen... =(

oooOOOooo... Taken by Steven Speilburg is really, really good... for the uninformed, its a 10-part mini-series about aliens and stuff... gotta love scifi =) wooOOoo... heeheehee... good plot, good character development, great actors (and cute btw), great sfx, great everything =) can't wait till the next one, definitely screwing homework for this show... go watch it before you get taken...

our first choral festival of the year. wow. hmm... what to say about that. it wasn't that bad. then again, it wasn't that good either. I've noticed that it's always easier to critique than to extol. in light of that, here's what we did wrong.
~ We sang to fast/we rushed (like we always do, don't ask why, i don't know)
~ we wern't blended (go figure with at least five sops that want to be divas)
~ we were flat, even during warm-ups
~ our dynamics were dramatic enough
on top of that, Concert Choir sucked, and they were rude and disrespectful. but despite it all, it could have been worse. Major kudos to the Nutley jr. high choir though, they rocked. How many jr. high choirs can pull off the Hallelujah Chorus and do it well?

What if the hokey pokey is what it's really all about?

damn the stupid NHS meetings that someone decided to hold before school.... that means i have to get up early! ... if i decide to go...

the never ending process
i hate college applications. they have to some of the stupidest things ever. so as of now i have three apps in... one of them not realyl counting because it's rutgers ($50 is really too much to pay for that application) me thinks that i'm not going to send the rest of the apps i haven't started yet until i get back my letters from Georgetown and BC. they're so expensive anyway. What do you think?