one last bit 'o randomness: all you blogger/xanga/livejournal -ers out there... there is a big possibility that I have forgotten the URLs to your sites (i had them saved on the comp at home, but not here) so be cool and leave me a little commenty type thing so I can read up on all your exploits... thankye!!!

Random mind purge: I went to the Roxy (this club in boston) with a few of my girlfriends on friday night, and it was fun and all... but what was with all the mad old guys and their trying to get with all the young girls!!! oh my gosh, it was soooo skeevy... because you don't always know who you're dancing with... ugghh ::shudder:: that's why it's good to go clubbing with your guy friends or a big bunch of friends in general, haha, you can all protect eachother... ::laugh:: thanks monica :)

hehehe, I love sitemeter... I can snoop and it lets me see the domain names of all (well 90%) of the people that read my site... :) It makes me happy to know that my friends care to keep up on whats happening to me... Love ya all!

"Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoetnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be at the rghit pclae. The rset can be a total mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe."

I'm on my way... 2 routines down... 6 to go... haha, it sounds really bad when I say it that way. I almost have routine #2 done... I just have a small bug to work out... but as my prof says, the problem isn't with my coding... it's with my brain. Smart man that Dr. Couch is. Not to mention incredibly nice when the lost frosh goes into office hours for help... I'm aiming for not an F... approx 21 hours to go...

have you ever felt so low and so dishearted that all you've wanted to do was curl up into a ball and cry? I wish I could just be enveloped in a gigantic hug and be told that everything was alright... and that I'm not stupid... and that I won't fail computer science... and that I'm not incompetent... and that I'm not a failure... mmm... crying in the computer lab would have been pretty pathetic, wouldn't it have been? Yeah, there were people there to help me, but what was I supposed to say? "Hi. I'm stupid and have no idea what I'm doing. Can you write my program for me?" Please.

US:3, SWD:1
woohoo!!! the US just won their first game of the 2003 Women's World Cup... sweeeettt... I'll give detail later, but for now, my books call...

ah, one quick tidbit though, what is with some guys?!?! "oh... this is chick soccer... I don't want to watch this..." please...

Friday Five
1. Who is your favorite singer/musician? Why?
Hmm... for the moment... I would have to say Jars of Clay. They are such a good band... They have so much talent, good harmonies, a great message, give awsome concerts... and they're not too bad on the eyes either...
2. What one singer/musician can you not stand? Why?
Britney Spears... she has no talent and just gets by by marketing her body.
3. If your favorite singer wasn't in the music business, do you think you would still like him/her as a person?
I think so... the band members seem really nice. They actually are in the process of setting up this organization to fight AIDS in Africa...
4. Have you been to any concerts? If yes, who put on the best show?
Yup... oh man, that's a really hard one. Why don't I just list the concerts I've been to? Creation Fest (a whole bunch of artists), Jaci Velasquez, Jars of Clay w/ Sixpence None The Richer, Tori Amos & Alanis Morrissette, and the Indigo Girls (it was only a short concert though, it was on the day of the blackout)
5. What are your thoughts on downloading free music online vs. purchasing albums? Do you feel the RIAA is right in its pursuit to stop people from dowloading free music?
Yes, only to a certain extent though... record companies charge waayyyyy too much for CDs... but it is sorta wrong.

just a little update...
correction: it turns out that we did not talk about dating/relationships at PSF bible study this week... we discussed faith & works... really good discussion... looks like wed night bible study will become a standard practice for me. It's scripture based, which is always good, and everyone always has something to add... :) sorta like Hi-BA... sorta. Minus the p&w and plus the fact that it's run by college students like me.

one last tidbit, we won our first soccer game yesterday!!! with only 11 people!!! woohoo!!!! I got the first assist of the season, which was sweet, and i didn't do too badly in goal either... ::big cheesy grin::

It seems like all of the religious type groups on campus are talking about relationships and dating this week... Hillel, TCF, PSF... ah well, its always a topic that can be discused. So tonight was MoB sponsered by TCF (MoB is this frosh bible study/discussion group thingy) and we ended up breaking into smaller groups... haha, its humerous how obvious it is when people have read "I Kissed Dating Goodbye" by Josh Harris... hehe, I was listening to this girl speak and thought "wow, thats really similar to some of the things Josh said in his book," so I ask her about it later, and lo and behold, she's a fellow Josh Harris fan! hehe, it was nifty. Whoops, hall snacks in a few minutes... best be getting a tad more work done...

It was announced today that after three seasons, the Womens United Soccer Association (WUSA) will suspend their operations. It seems that they couldn't raise enough funds to keep the league going. (well maybe if they didn't play some of their games in the freakin middle of nowhere ::coughcough:: NY Power) In my opinion, this sucks major butt... the WUSA was/is such a great place for new talent to develope and be showcased. Not to mention that it's one of the only women's pro-soccer leagues in the world... what a shame...

in other news, I sprained my other ankle (the left one) during today's game... I'm getting to be a cripple...

The Friday Five a day late as usual
1. Is the name you have now the same name that's on your birth certificate? If not, what's changed?
Yup. My name's been Tara Beth Espiritu for the past 18 years, 1 month, and 1 day.
2. If you could change your name (first, middle and/or last), what would it be?
I like my name, I wouldn't change anything about it.
3. Why were you named what you were? (Is there a story behind it? Who specifically was responsible for naming you?)
Uhhhh... I think my parents just liked the name.... haha, after I was born, they wandered around the halls of the hospital for a few hours trying to pick out a name for me.
4. Are there any names you really hate or love? What are they and why?
For boys names, I like the names Landon, Brandon, Benjamin and Trent. For girls, I really like names that you can shorten into a boys name... like Samantha and especially Alexandra. I also like names that are spelled unusually, like Kathryn and Allyson. ::shrug:: I'm probably forgetting a lot of names that I like, but these will suffice for now.
5. Is the analysis of your name at Kablarians.com/ triggur.org / astroexpert accurate? How or how isn't it?
Woahhhh... The analysis from Kablarians.com was spot on... its so freaky... well, except for that part about not liking to try new things...
The name of Tara incorporates a potential aptitude for concentration and patient, logical thought along mechanical or scientific lines. You tend to prefer to follow normal routine rather than cope with the disruption and uncertainty entailed in trying something new. You gravitate to situations where you have stability and the opportunity to make slow step-by-step progress, preferably in a technical field. Procrastination and lack of self-confidence may restrict your success. You enjoy associating with others, and would not be happy living or working alone. This name tends to make you dependent upon others, and you find it difficult to face issues or important decisions without relying upon others for advice and encouragement. This name undermines positivity, with the result that you can be influenced against your better judgment. You find it difficult to say "no" and mean it.

explorations and realizations
I think I'll start with the PSF (protestant student fellowship) bible study that I went to tonight. I think it was pretty good. It wasn't as scripture oriented as Hi-BA, but it was a lot of discussion about topics and situaitons that are relevant to today's society, so it was good in that aspect. I'm always up for a good discussion anyways, especially if its about religion/spirituality/etc. I've come to the conclusion that what's "right" and "wrong" always depends on the person. You, or rather, I, can't assume that all Christians share the same viewpoints on certain subjects. From what I gathered, most of us had the same moral standards on the topics of relationships and what not, but it really varied when we got to the subject of drinking. Maybe I'm just super-conservative... but apparently a quite a few people think its alright to get wasted... ::shrug:: I guess I expected different. ::soft laugh:: I think I expected everyone to have the same viewpoints as I do. I know some people do, so that's comforting at least. I still want to try out MoB (The TCF [tufts chrisitan fellowship] bible study thing for frosh) and other stuff that TCF, ACF (asian chrisitan fellowship) and CCT (the catholic organization) have to offer... I'm all for trying new things out in college... that's what it's for anyway... I just hope I can stay focused... because I definitely have the tendency to let my attention wander.

In other news, we (Tufts JV women's soccer) had our first game today against Middlesex prep/boarding school. We lost pretty badly, which is quite embarrasing. I definitely played like crap and thensome for the first half though, so I'm not going to critcise. I played a teeny bit better the second half, but I still did pretty badly overall... Not to mention that I'm in horrible shape. This is why I always downplayed my skills during HS and stuff. Everyone was always like, "yo, you're mad good," to which I would reply, "No. I'm really not." For while I may have been good for Teaneck soccer, I realized how I compared to the rest of the girl soccer players my age out there. All during HS and whatnot, my ego has been built up pretty high, and that's why I think it was such a harsh blow to be but from the varsity team. Sure it makes me feel a little bit better knowing that any D3 team in NESCAC can hold their own against any D1 school, but still... it surely put everything in a better perspective though.

yeahhhh... seems like rejection from things that i thought i was decent at is a common theme for the past few days.... i didn't get into sQ! ... they said I was really good and that they have no bad comments, but they could only take one girl... i'm just wondering who got in... sigh. i suck at life.

sweeeettt... I got a callback for sQ, an a capella group at Tufts... I'll keep ya updated... wish me luck... Oh!! and while I'm on the subject of a capella... I also tryed out for the Amalgamates (another group on campus), and they call be at 3:30 in the morning to tell me that I'm not getting called back! 3:30 in the morning!!! is that strangeness or what? Hahaha, I wasn't really lucid when the guy called me... it was basically a lot of "mmhmmm"-ing and "I understand"-ing and what not... hahah, whutever, anyways, back to work... blech...