Letting go
Let go and let God... it's an expression used often among Christian circles. I know that I've used it often since I became active in my faith. I believe that if you give everything up in your life to God, then He'll make everything be okay. Well... maybe not okay instantaneously, but okay in the long run. If we stop trying to control every aspect of our lives and just remember that God is looking out for us, we'll all be a lot happier and less stressed... To bad I'm not good at relinqueshing control in my life. I mean, I can in certain matters... but in others I find it really hard. While taking my shower (thats where all the best thinking occurs) I realized that if I just let go a little more and trust God... that I would be a lot happier.
I think right now I really need to relinquish control in my love life... haha, or actually, my non-existant love life. That's what I'm fighting God about... the lack of a significant other in my life. Or I don't know if I'm really fighting it... I think I'm just trying to force the issue. Oh I don't know, this is all comming out wrong.
Okay... I think I've summed up my thoughts... here goes. I need to stop acting like an immature stupid twit when I'm around people that I like. Now I'm not bad as some people I know, but sometimes I feel like I try to be a little bit 'cooler' when I'm around specific people to be impressive. Which is very not cool. When I do that I'm being the biggest hypocrite ever. And its frusterating as all hell. This is what I need to let go of.