Observations of a wallflower
Strange mood that I've been in this (school) year so far. In a lot of situtions, I have found myself feeling like a bystander watching from the sidelines. Sort of involved in the conversation, but more like an observer. I don't really know why this is though. Am I distancing myself from people? Maybe I just haven't been in the mood to do the big group thing thus far. It takes so much energy just to be heard in a medium/large sized group. ::shrug:: Things change, people change, and hopefully I'm changing right a long with them... in a good way that is. Change, while usually unwelcome in my book, is inevitable and unavoidable. Change drives the human race forward, which is good, but sometimes it is just so hard to adjust. It takes such a long time for things to get the way you want them, and then by the time you get to that comfort level, things are different already.

I have so many thoughts running through my head, but at this point, I can hardly keep my eyes open. After getting minimum amounts of sleep at the awsome Frosh lock-in, and then waking up to take a test at 10 am, my brain is pretty much fried. However tired my physical body is, my mind is just so loaded right now I don't know if I'd be able to fall asleep. Well, that's not true. I just don't know if I'd want to go to sleep and lose all of these thoughts. Not like I won't have these thoughts again. It's the type of thought chain that recures a lot in your life... Where do I fit in? Who are my friends? Should I really major in this? What am I doing with my life? Et cetera, et cetera and yadda yadda yadda. As a final thought before my head hits my pillow, and also so I don't forget this event... yesterday we had communion using animal crackers. All will say is coolness.