It's late...
And I'm getting really tired. Of everything. Especially of drama and conflict. It would be nice if everything just solved it self while I sleep tonight. Who's getting the double in the apt. Relationship-ish stuff. Church. Sometime I really want to take the easy way out and go spend my days volunteering in Philly or something of the sort. But that would be too easy. What I'm doing right now by complaining is too easy. Here I am, going on about what I think is wrong instead of trying to find solutions. Here I am finding everything wrong and being frusterated instead of being joyful at all of the good that there still is. It's amazing how writing some things out enable you to see how silly you are being.

Right now I am thankful for the wonderful and inspiring music I am listening to. I am thankful that I am not outside in the cold. I am thankful that my belly is full. I am thankful for the circumstances that allow me to be where I am. I am thankful for all of the love and support that God is giving me.

But I pray for courage to do what is right, and the wisdom to know that those things actually are. I pray for all of those who are lost, and for all who are searching. May we find the way. I pray for all of those who need healing, myself included. And as a go to sleep I pray...

Lord, it is night.
The night is for stillness.
Let us be still in the presence of God.
It is night after a long day,
What has been done has been done;
what has not been done has not been done;
let it be.
The night is dark.
Let our fears of the darkness of the world and of our own lives
rest in you.
The night is quiet.
Let the quietness of your peace enfold us,
all who are dear to us,
and all who have no peace.
The night heralds the dawn.
Let us look expectantly to a new day,
new joys,
new possibilities.
In your name we pray.
Amen.