none of my own

I have so much running through my mind right now, but am having an extremely difficult time putting it on paper (or rather on screen). Since my own words are failing me, I will borrow the words of people that have come before me.

"Love is what you've been through with somebody." ~ James Thurber

"There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief...and unspeakable love." ~ Washington Irving

"Don't hold to anger, hurt or pain. They steal your energy and keep you from love." ~ anon.

"The one who loves you will make you weep." ~ Argentine Proverb

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." ~ Maryanne Williamson

"Experience: that most brutal of teachers. But you learn, my God do you learn." ~C.S. Lewis


So if you can't tell, I'm feeling a little blah right now. My blah is comming in the form of not wanting to study for tests, only getting passible grades on papers, my complete and utter lack of desire to study, being tired of waiting, the fear of the future and the inability to let go of the past. By concentrating on my blah, I think I am just making it worse. It's another one of those downward spiral thingymabobs. I've always had a hard time living in the present, and this seems to be one of those times. But as always, life moves on, and there are always things to look forward to. The PSF retreat on the Cape is this weekend, which should be nice (hopefully). Mike should also be getting here in a few days, which I am extremely happy about, but also nervous at the same time. It seems that all of my emotions have been getting confused and tangled up of late. Hmmm... decisions about exactly how much to talk about. It's late, and I'm getting slightly delusional, so I think this is the part where I go to sleep...