A Week In Review

I am so glad this week is over. It's certainly been one hellish ride. I can't wait for this month to be over either, that would be nice too... except the first week of October brings my first exams as a grad student. I'm sad to admit that I'm not where I should be with my studies, and that I really need to haul ass until October 1st... and past it really.

We finally got our assignments for my Fieldwork I class. I'll be observing a larger classroom in Lexington once a week for about 2 months or so. I'm not really sure what to expect, but I do know that I'm nervous. I feel like the majority of first years have a good amount of more experience than I do, especially with peds (read: pediatrics = children). I just hope that I don't make a fool of myself or do anything that reflects poorly on the school. Odds are that everything will be absolutely fine and I might even love it and want to work in schools (I doubt it). I think my biggest fear is missing my alarm and waking up/arrive at fieldwork late, which would be doubly bad because I'll probably be carpooling with someone.

This Thursday at Metrorock I banged my knee up fairly decently. I decided to start of my session doing this bouldering route with a traverse across and arch (think no where for Tara's legs to go), and my hand slipped of a hold and I fell [safely] onto the crashpad, hitting my knee against the wall in the process. The bruise doesn't look that bad, but it was sore for the next 36 hours or so, which was a pain (haha, get it?). It didn't stop me from succesfully navigating my first rotary on my bike today. I was very proud of myself (and relieved that I didn't get killed).

In other thoughts (I don't have the attention span to stay on one topic for too long), trying to plan my fieldwork II placements have been difficult and interesting at the same time. Do I want to stay in state? In the north east? Or do I want to go someplace completely different? Maybe I'll go to Alaska and climb Denali in my spare time (if I have any). Or I can go to Colorado and do some ice climbing or maybe Hawaii and learn to SCUBA. I've been feeling the need to escape recently. For various reasons, I feel like Boston has been closing in on me a little. I need to figure out how to fill this new void in my life and fill it quick. Some people at BSOT commute from places that are a lot farther away than my measly 1.25 miles, so maybe I just need to move. Or maybe by the time morning rolls around I'll be okay again. There's too much time for me to swim through my thoughts at night, and I'm pretty sure that's what gets me in trouble.

The night is dark.

The night is quiet.


The night heralds the dawn.


Let me look expectantly to a new day,
New joys,
New possibilities.

Amen.