A brief respite

Tonight, for the first time in over a week, I was able to truly take a night off. Sure, I didn't really study much on Friday or Saturday night, but the thought of the impending anatomy exam was hanging over [most] of the first-years' heads. Of course on my night off I end up doing errands/chores, such as laundry and installing a new shower head, etc.

While I hope to do well in grad school, I've definitely reached the point of not caring if I get straight A's or not. My goals are to pass all of my classes (passing being a B-), pass the Boards, and not get too overly stressed out in the process. Are my future employers really going to be looking at my GPA? Of course I want to do well and make myself and my parents/family proud, but I do not feel like it's worth it to freak out about every single exam. Then again, maybe my ideas will change once I get the results back from the three exams that I just took.

These few months have been, and will continue to be, a period of self-discovery and self-defining. I didn't think that grad school was going to be that big of a change, but it's been enough of a change that I think I am redefining myself and figuring out who I am and what I want all over again. This process has been quite invigorating, if not terrifying, but exciting none-the-less. I don't think the core of myself has changed all the much, but rather, what's changing is what I choose to emphasize and how comfortable I am with these things. I do believe I am beginning to talk in circles, so I will end with one of the highlights from the past week.


On May 20th I had the honor of attending Jacob and Heather's wedding, the first wedding of my high school friends. Weird, but if anyone is ready to get married, it's definitely Jacob. What struck me, while I was riding with Nicole to the wedding, is that it felt exactly like high school. Nothing had changed. Sure, we all have college degrees now, and are a few years older, but the essence is still the same. And to a certain extent, I think it will always be that way... we may change, but our friendships will [hopefully] stay the same, always being able to pick up right where we left off. For that, I am thankful.