Am I a bad friend for not wanting to go somewhere?? Am I?!? you know, i'm sorry, but i never promised that i was going... Is this why I haven't had a "one-and-only-best-friend" for a long time? Wow. I really havn't... Or am i just not a people person? Do I expect the world and then not give enough in return? I don't think I do... Is having a "one-and-only-best-friend" even really necessary? I never used to think so, but then why do I get these savage bouts of lonliness? Savage bouts.... interesting pharse. Its quite possible that I am just over-reacting again, like I always do.... It would probably help if I didn't dwell on things so much... but thats just who I am. Why do I care so much about what other people think of me? What other people say about me? Why should their opinion of me hold standing in my life? because it does. Why? because...