regional chorus follies
hahaha, i love honors choirs, they are sooo much fun. For example, yesterday's rehersal. Collen, Arielle and I sat in the auditorium obsessing over the B2's low note in the russian song. It's 'orgasmic' and Collen would say... hahaha, it almost is. Too bad only a handful of basses can hit that note... its like a low low low B i think... ooooooo ::shiver:: hahaha, if your not a chorus girl, then you don't understand how sexy low notes are... hahahahaha... :) just some of our weirdness. heeheehee, we were also 'stripping' because it was so damn hot in that auditorium, could they put the heat a little higher?!? Elena was so funny though... see, she likes this guy Tim, who's a very sweet buy btw, I know him from past all-states and regions. Hahaha, so she had Andreas and Ben talk her up during sectionals and such. So Ben writes in big letters on his folder "Elena is hot", and on his water bottle "Elena is a goddess" or something like that, and then holds both in Tim's direct line of sight... hahah, apparently Tim got a little confused by these signs ;) So funny though, because Ben hardly even knows Elena, but that just shows how cool he is :) heehehee, it would be quite cute if somethign happened between the two of them... only time shall tell... :)
Thursday, January 30
Wednesday, January 29
Tuesday, January 28
and the work goes on...
its that time of year again for English Term Papers. So yeah, i need a book on friday and I have no idea what to choose. Any suggestions at all would be really really really appreciated. The book has to be by a non-American writer preferably (I don't know why, ask Twombly). mmmm... I fig this'll also be a good test to see how many people actually read my blog... please, please leave suggestions! Thankyou!
the bane of my existance
mmm.... I hate midterms... they're evil and are a poor representation of what you actually know... I totally rocked by Java programming exam, A+ with a 111% baby! AP Comp Sci wasn't even that bad, I got at 83% or something like that. But the others? Like the ones that actually count? so absolutely disgusting.... Physics, yeah, right... and AP Calc BC? Why the heck am I taking that class in the first place? I think that I'm trying to become smart by surrounding myself with smart people... but obviously its not working. I think I possibly got the worst grade in the class... well, maybe tied for worst because I know someone else got the same disgusting grade as I did. Blahhhhhh... But you know you're a senior when you don't really care anymore... because suprisingly, I really don't. :) Life is all good
Monday, January 27
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BEST EPISODE OF ALIAS EVER!!!!!! SOOOOOO GOOODDDD!!!!!! ah ah ah ah ah.. oooo kayyyysss... sooo hyper.... sooo gooodddddd.... wooooo.... ahhhh, okay. Oh. My Gosh. Alias was so absolutely incredibly good today! They finally take out The Alliance, and Sydney and Vaughn finally kiss! hahaha, before they did and when they were looking at eachother, i was like "Kiss her! Kiss her! kiss her!" hahaha, i'm so incredibly silly. And whats the deal with the two Francines?!? Which one was making out with Will? Which is dead? I'm guessing that it was the real Francine that was killed! What a great plot twist! ahhhh.... oo! oo! And I am so excited to see Ethan Hawk guest star on the next episode! ahhh!!! okayokay, must attempt to go to bed now... ahhhhhhh
Sunday, January 26
girls night out
ah yes, so tonight, it was just me, leigh and nicole...no Jacob because he was out on a hot date ;) we watched "about a boy" at leigh's house,it wasn't bad... i expected it to be better though, especially after nicole's insessant raving about it. after arguing about what to do for a good 30 min, we finally decided to go out to Matthews for food, really yummy. but ewwwww, i sorta stepped in a pile of barf when walking in, it was sooooo nasty! Then to much protest by nicole, we basically just didn't let her out of the car, we went to sports world for about an hour... i totally beasted in air-hockey and the shooting games =) hahah, but leigh is now the top 'jedi youth knight' in the starwars pinball game! boo yah! hahah, and you trade in tkts for prizes, so we all got these really gaudy plastic rings with 'gems' ... mine is by far the best, it has an amber "diamond" in a "silver" setting, its so exquisite :) sigh... what a good night
Saturday, January 25
Friday, January 24
Friday Five
1. What is one thing you don't like about your body?
my hair & all of the various problems that go with it...
2. What are two things you love about your body?
hmmmm... love? ehhh i don't know. If i had to pick two features i like the most... i would say my legs (ooo yea, rocking the soccer player calves) and, umn... people say i have long-artsy fingers... i guess thats nice... hahah, i have no idea
3. What are three things you want to change about your home?
1 -- I would make it cleaner, its soo messy
2 -- re-paint my room... the last time i painted it, i was like 8, so its extreemly pink and i hate pink
3 -- re-carpet the rooms... I have spilled so much stuff on them... its definitely time for a re-vamp
4. What are four books you want to read this year?
The 5th Harry Potter (June is so far away!), The Complete Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy series, Lovely Bones, and the next book in the Sabriel/Lirael series by Garth Nix
mmm.... the first rehersal of my last high school regions chorus was today. good times =) I got to see to of my roomies from all-state (Nor and Em!), some great BA peoples, cool choir people that i've meet over the years, plus a special someone =) And the two girls I sat next to today were the sweetest. I don't know how much i like the music this year though... Witness and the Hogan piece are really good... and of course Beethoven's Choral Fantasy is awsome, i don't think we'll be able to pull it off though. There is also no variation in the music, for example, there are no "fun" pieces like Chindia and Cindy. The conductor is... ehhh.... not bad, but could be more into it. The woman we had for sectionals was the cutest though... classic soprano =) I can't wait till wednesday...
Wednesday, January 22
game, set, match
Andy Roddick v. Younes El Aynaoui... Austialian Open... my gosh, possibly the best tennis match I have ever seen in my life, it was sooo good! Insane though! The match lasted for over 4 and a half hours! so crazy! the last set was over two hours by its self.. it finally ended 21 to 19, Roddick. So amazingly good, their skill and technique were so amazing. Roddick had these awsome diving volleys and El Aynaoui had these totally sweet backhand-volleys.... my gosh, 4 & 1/2 hours.... thats craziness... hahaha, the players were so funny though, at one point, they gave their rackets to the ball-boys because they were so tired... it was hilarious.. =) oh man, i would love to watch that game again! plus Roddick is not to bad to look at ;)
Tuesday, January 21
Two midterms down... four more to go.... or three actually. I've decided that Java doesn't count beacuse I'm not going to study for it, there's no reason to. For starters, I know its gonna be cake and I'm going to finish it in an hour. Hes also letting us use all of our old programs, our text book, notes, etc. How much easier can you get? :P Today's midterms (AP physics and AP lit) actually weren't that bad. I think i got no less than a B - on both of them, which I'm perfectly happy with... I guess I'll just have to see... Ahhhh but AP Comp Sci tomorrow.... I should just not take it... I am so sucking wind in that class... pray for me.... =)
Monday, January 20
The night sky is so breath-taking sometimes... I was leaving Jacob's house at around 8ish, and as I was walking to my car, I happend to look up and I was just in awe. The sky was so clear with no clouds in the sky, and the stars just shone so brightly... it was absolutely beautiful. I could see Orion so clearly that an image of a hunter standing in the darkness appeared so vividly in my mind. The stars... the planets... the comets... They're all so beautiful. Even those you cannot see like black holes are amazing. I wonder what else is out there. What haven't we found yet? Is there other intelligent life out there searching for other beings just like we are? I certainly hope so, beacuse if it's just us, it seems like an awful waste of space, as said so eloquently in the movie Contact. I hope in my life time we make some type of contact... that would be so beyond amazing... I guess we'll just wait and see...
yes! I am finished with these idiotic history notecards! All of them! all freaking 130! boo yah!! hahahahaha... blah, now I have to study for Physics and Lit... stupid AP classes. Why did I ever sign up for those classes? I tried studying physics with fil yesterday, and that was a big flop. I basically have to re-teach myself everything since: a) Mr. Kirsch is a absolutely horrible teacher, and b) I'm so forgetful... hahaha, i'm sure it didn't help that I was very distracted yesterday :) ...But I'm off to study Lit with Jacob and Leigh at 2:45, wish me luck
Sunday, January 19
"i hate mirrors..they are much too truthful for me...they do not allow you to escape judgement...they do not delude you or distort the truth...they pour forth only what they are supplied...they expose your deepest, darkest secrets without a second thought..they are naive and innocent for they do not know how to deceive..yet they are also cruel and cunning..they are incisive..they throw salt in your already festering wounds by forcing you to examine yourself in all your despair..in all your truthfulness..they are man's ruin..even the best of men have fallen because of a simple reflection..a simple glimpse into their own souls...mirrors end our foolish illusions..they shatter our already cracked chimeras..they leave us broken, searching ever more"
care of Meredith Magenhime, an awsome M200 girl from GSE2002
Saturday, January 18
blah, my last ever regions auditions were today, actually, my last high school auditions for any choir. Tonal memory blowed, i maybe got 2 measures right... hopefully... As for scales and solo... I actually think that I sang pretty well. 2 or so measures were a little iffy but over all. And Ben (who could hear me out in the hallways for some strange reason) said that i sounded good and that i didn't go flat on my chromatic scale, which was giving me the most problems earlier =) yay! just 24 hours and i'll find out.... i really hope i get into SATB.... haha, not for the best of reason either ;)
Friday, January 17
Thursday, January 16
Wednesday, January 15
ahhhh.... i have no attention span. I've been sitting at the computer for more than 2 hours and really haven't gotten anything accomplish on my stupid history essay... Maybe I'll just study for a bit and then try to go back to it. Or would someone like to write my essay for me??? Anyone at all? ... mmmm, i thought not. Oh well. Distractions, distractions...
Why am I so hesitant? Everything is almost perfect right now, yet I'm still doubting it. I don't think I trust myself or something of the sort. Will I be strong enough to stick to my morals? The line is so thin and indistinguishable at most times. Maybe I'm just not ready. But if I don't do anything, chances are I will complain about it later. And of course people will remind me of it. Yes, yes, Carpe Diem. But if seizing the day means losing myself in the process, then I am going to learn how to sit tight and just be content. That would require strength that I don't yet have though. What happened to that strong person of sophomore year? I was so with it, I was moving so confidently in the right direction. Am I that weak that I need someone holding my hand and pushing me along every step of the way? If I only had a yellow brick road that would lead me to wherever I'm going... Would that make me happier though? Or smarter? Life is comprised of triumphs and mistakes... more mistakes than triumphs probably... but is there anyway to make it through unscathed? I guess not
Tuesday, January 14
Monday, January 13
what the heck is up?!? Arghhhh!!!!! ((fake dialouge below)) ((Esther is in quotes))
"I heard someone likes you"
What???!?
"Yeah, Jacob!"
Oh my gosh, not you too, why does everyone think that, who did you hear that from?
"Allie Metz, so its not true?"
Not in the slightest!
"Too bad, would have been cute, you should reconsider..."
[theres more, but you get the gist]
gahhhhhhh!!!! how did this rumor get started? what the effing heck? (trying so hard not to curse) No, no, and no! Jacob and I do not like eachother, we both have other interests! And how did Allie hear this rumor? I hardly ever talk to her anymore! And Jacob certainly don't converse with her on a daily basis! And both Leigh and Nicole wouldn't have said anything... or Felicia. Grrrrr..... I am so pissed.... well pissed isn't the word... or maybe it is. Who started this rumor? what the hell?!?!??! argh.... now I have to bug people about this... ugh... like I don't have enough things do to.
Sunday, January 12
i was just reading this article in the online version of NY Times about the lack of females in Comp Sci, and I took a look at the messages posted in a forum about this article. and I quote, "I have studied my girls, wives and girlfriends and found what it boiled down to: girls do not like computers because the machines are not life-connected AND computers cannot be as readily manipulated by a smile and a caprice as humans can." What a stupid effing jackarse. How stereotypical can you be? grrrrr..... and then the first two lines of the article were, "Anyone who has ever tried to pry a girl offline knows that girls like computers. They just don't understand how they work" Are you kidding me? So i guess that all men understand how computers work, what a freakin joke. So here's my response that I posted in the forum.
Currently I am a senior at a public high school. Being the only girl in both of my computer science classes (Java Programming and AP Computer Science), this article grabbed my attention. I must admit that I do not enjoy being the only female in my class at times, but I would not drop the class beause of it. As we have witnessed throughout history, females take a longer time to become involved in new professions, and I think if given the time, females will be drawn to computer science. It is not something we should try to force, it should just happen on its own. Its not that we "don't understand them," I just don't think women have had the same opportunity as men to become involved in the field. And to say that women do not like computers because they "cannot be as readily manipulated by a smile and a caprice as humans can" is a lie, and I find that insulting. This is a good example of the stereotype that females have to overcome everyday, and why it has been more difficult for us to get involved in the field compared to men.
Grrr.... this stuff makes me so pissed off
Saturday, January 11
Friday, January 10
Friday Five
1. Where are you right now?
I am in the study... which is extreemly messy...
2. What time is it?
7:48, or at least by my computer, which could very well be wrong
3. What are you wearing?
I am wearing jeans, my docs, a lavender knit sweater, and a light blue scarf
4. Any people or animals around you? Describe them.
My 'rents are eating dinner in the kitchen, which is the next room over... They're your normal parents...
5. What are your plans for the weekend?
lesse... I have dress rehersal for counties on saturday and 8:30, and then aca dec at noon, and then dinner with some friends at 6:30ish. On sunday I have my county chorus concert and church. Plus all the regular homework and history midterm notecards....
Wednesday, January 8
We're how old again?
ahahahah, i love my classmates. We had zero period again this morning (I swear, it should be outlawed or something), and like normal, we were all butt tired and bored out of our minds. So you know what we did? ...or at least a few of the boys... They had fun firing spitballs at eachother. For some reason, someone had extra straws, so they spent a good 20 min blowing spitballs at eachother. I would have to say that was the most fun I had in that class in a while. Hahahaha, made all the better by Henry threatening to punch Matt if he didn't stop.. hehehehehe... Oh and of course being the dork that I am, stayed up until 1:30ish last night, making me extreemly tired for class... So Matt and I, who was just as tired as I was, promptly fell asleep in class... Well, I was just resting my eyes so I could concentrate on what Mr. Kirsch was saying, just the way how Kara knits to pay attention =) Its true! stop shaking your head at me! =P and the best part must have been woken up by a camera flash... thanks to Kara for that one... =)
i'm tired, i'm cranky, i have like 1/2 of the physics packet left to do, plus 100 pgs of grendel, my leg is cramping, i bruised my knee, i don't want to go to zero period tomorrow, and i don't want to tutor tomorrow.... freaking effe this.... blahhhhhhh
ah one good thing: the 1st rehersal for county chorus was today, and it was a blast
Monday, January 6
Sunday, January 5
Why am I so scared? I don't even know what I really scared about... am I scared that things will actually work out this time? or am I terrified that things wont? I'm so uneasy almost to the point of tears, but not yet. I'm so insecure about what could happen in the future, that I don't let the now happen. I feel like I'm trying to avoid every possible bad situation, and by doing that, I'm closing myself off. And it seems like I always say the wrong things... am I diving into this too fast? or am I standing fearfully on the ledge, to scared to ever jump in? There are too many feelings to deal with right now. Too many possibilities. To many maybes, shoulds, could-bes, and what-ifs. Why can't there be a shining path in front of me leading to the right decisions? I know thats not life, and that we are shaped by our mistakes as well as our triumphs... I'm just asking for a little guidance right now. Lord, that is what I pray for right now. The guidance to make the right decisions, and the grace to deal with the bad ones. The strength to keep my feet on the ground and the courage to let go. Guidance. Grace. Strength. Courage. Such simple words and simple things... yet without them I lack all substance. Those four words, echoing in my head, in my heart. I feel such an emptiness not knowing what to do, or what I am even doing right now. And this is what brings me to the edge of tears. But Lord, I know your there, and I will continue to wait. I am just fearful that my eyes are so blinded that I will pass You by...
My gosh, the last 1:10 of the NYG v. SF game was so intense! ahahaha, i think its so funny when people get in fights during pro sports games... woohoohoo... heeheehee... stupid giants player though. he messed up the field goal opportunity first by fumbling around with it, and then he missed his chance to get another shot at the play... idiot.
Saturday, January 4
Friday, January 3
Friday Five
1. Do you wear any jewelry? What kind?
I almost always wear my silver cross that I go from the Messinas. Then not during soccer season, i wear earrings, just studs though. My favorite is this pair of earrings that look like little feet... I think I've had about three pairs of them because I keep losing them =) And I just lost this other moon/star pair that I have been wearing... So if anyone feels the need to get me a late Christmas present... ;)
2. How often do you wear it?
When I remember
3. Do you have any piercings? If so, where?
I have my ears pierced... just one hole in each...
4. Do you have any tattoos? If so, where?
Nope, but I'd definitely consider getting one... Henna tatoos are great though, I've had lots of those.
5. What are your plans for the weekend?
Saturday: Regions chorus auditions (I'm screwd, I just started practicing last week and now i think I'm getting sick again), having a late celebration of Nicola's 17th b-day
Sunday: Church, watching Alias
Sometime during those two days: Homework, History Final, Supid senior project
ahhhh... this has been the best school week ever. For all intensive purposes, yesterday was "monday," and now today is friday! How sweet is that? =) And here I am, sitting in first period, with a sub! So i get to spend 86 minutes doing absolutely nothing productive in school, this is great =) well... I just described my normal history class... but its all good!