extended vacation
yeahhhhh... I think that I should drop everything that I'm doing right now and go off to live as a hermit for a while. Seems like I'm a big screw up... oh and not to mention a hugggee jerk, thats a direct quote there. I think that in my desperation to escape the real world, I haven't been acting rationally recently. I think that's making the situation too much in my favor. I think the problem is that I am afraid of confrontation... or thats at least one of my problems... mmmm... ya know, that was a good wake up call. I think I am a big jerk and I just trick myself into thinking that I'm not. Well, at least I'll be gone until sat night, Georgetown and all... I wonder if that will be enough time for people to not despise me anymore.

I am the only one to blame for this
Somehow it all adds up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high and like Icarus I collide
With a world I try so hard to leave behind
To rid myself of all but love
to give and die
~Jars of Clay