what to do... what to do... decisions that can effect the next four year of my life. decisions that effect what I do today. decisions that effect what I will do tomorrow. predestination huh... then why aren't things laid out nice and neat infront of me? damn my indecision. damn my cowardness. damn you/this/it/everyone for screwing around with my mind. most of all, damn me.. for I am the one that is suffering because of torment I bring upon myself.