Flipping through the channels this afternoon I came across this documentary on Christian music on the Discovery Times channel. Without a doubt, I listen to the most Christian music out of all of the people that I know. But listening to Christian music doesn't make me more of a Christian than the next. What does make someone a Christian then? Certainly not what we listen to or what we read or what profession we are. It seems that one of the only things left is beliefs. I feel like you can't even really say that beliefs define who and what Christians are. Ever since I became active in my faith, I've been trying to figure out who I am as a Christian.

When I became a "born-again Christian," or however you want to call it, my sophomore year of HS I was pretty conservative in my views. I was raised Roman Catholic after all. The Hi-BA crowd is all pretty conservative also, not that it's necessarily a bad thing. As the years progressed and I left Teaneck to go to high school, my world expanded as did my group of Christian friends. College was a bit of a jolt to say the least... a welcome jolt though. Never before had I met so many people that had as liberal views as I did. Not only were they more liberal, but also more welcoming towards people of all walks of life. It's sort of funny actually. It's probably more taboo to be conservative in my college group than it is to be liberal. The thing is that I still hold a few conservative view points.

Yes, I'm one of those people that are going to wait until marriage. And, well... I guess that's it. I'm still on the conservative side regarding abortion, but it's so hard to have different "conditions" regarding laws on abortion. Like abortion, I've been swaying slowly to the other side on a lot of topics. It could be partly due to the people that I spend time with. Even when became a new Christian, it's not like all of my conservative ideals went flying out of the window, I think going to college just allowed me to meet more Christians that share the same views and I do, and allowed my more liberal views to take hold.

So, where does that leave me? ::shrug:: In some sort of faith crisis as it stands right now. It gets awfully lonely after a while being the only person you know that has all the same views as you. Well maybe not all, but most... or maybe I have. But why is it that for every 10 conservative-ish Christians that I meet that are on 'fire' about God, I only meet 1 liberal-ish person that has the same passion? Frankly, it just gets a little discouraging at times.

I guess it all comes down to one thing. Trust. Trust that God is real and that he/she is watching over me. Trust that I am doing God's will. Trust that I'm not crazy for believing in a higher being. And of course you can't forget about faith, because everyone has to have faith in something. Faith is trusting in something that you can't see and that you can't prove, its not just something that religious people have. Athiests have to have the faith to believe that there is no higher power out there, no supreme being. Me... I have faith that there is a God, I just wish my faith was a little stronger sometimes.


When are you people going to learn? It's not about who's right or wrong. No denomination's nailed it yet, and they never will because they're all too self-righteous to realize that it doesn't matter what you have faith in, just that you have faith. Your hearts are in the right place, but your brains need to wake up."

Hmm... I was going to write about my three day ski trip that I went on with my sister, but that doesn't seem particularly significant right now. Just pray for all of those that have died or are suffering from the earthquake and tsunami.

Ahhh... nothing beats being home. Raiding the fridge late at night.... sleeping until 1 o'clock... having your own room... and most importantly, showering without wearing shoes. :grin: But really, being back home has been great. I got back to Teaneck in the early afternoon on Saturday. The drive was pretty uneventful, besides me being an idiot and taking a 20 minute detour because I missed the exit onto the Mass Pike. Traffic was good though, so it didn't really matter. It's surprising how quickly I fell into the old rhythm of things. One thing that I love about being home is that I can read again. You just don't have the time in college to read for pleasure, so whenever I'm home I devour books. It's been, what, about 5 days, and I've already read four new books, and am about to start my 5th after I finish up here. What a nice break from a long semester...

I love how an email from an old friend can brighten your entire day. :)

"There is nothing in which people more betray their character than in what they laugh at."
~Goethe

Hm, it's been quite a while since I've updated, quite a while for me that is. A few things have happened since then...

On Friday I went to Harvard Sq. with Matt to go shopping for a few things. I went the the jewelry shop and got a new pair of star studs, since I'm always loosing earrings. Then I went to Newbury Comics to look at CDs and possibly for other gifts. I finally picked something out, and lo and behold, where's my wallet?! I'm guessing it fell out of my pocket/bag and someone just picked it up. Either way, it's no longer in my possession. Having to cancel my cards/IDs and losing some cash definitely sucked, but I think I miss the other things that were in my wallet more. Little mementos, movie ticket stubs, old IDs and other things I can't even remember any more. Oh well, I guess it serves me right for not being more consciousscious.

UPDATE: I actually got my wallet sent to me in the mail on sunday! It had everything in it, sans the 40 or so dollars that I had in it. True, I already canceled all of my cards already, but it saved me the hassel of having to get new membership cards and what not. And of course now I have all of my pressed pennies :)

Anyway... Saturday was Rev. Steve Bonsey's annual Christmas party. Fun times and good food as always. The Bonsey family is just so nice, I love spending time at their house (even though I've only been there twice :grin:) That night I also went to the TDC show to go watch my hott ex-floormates on stage. The show was really good by the way. Then on Sunday I woke up really early (for me) to go do some fundraising singing at a church in Weston. That night was lessons & carols which was also really fun.

And now it's finals week. So far I have completed one exam (psych), one program (EN 1), and one expressive final (ASL). All I have left is my spanish final on thursday and then I'm done!!! It is very much time for a break. Not so much from Tufts, but from classes. Next semester most of my classes are actually part of my major, so it's fun and exciting. I also have a huge sleep debt that I really need to make up. I stayed up until 5 last night/morning working on my program. My procrastinating tendencies really bite me in the ass sometimes. You all would be proud of me tonight though! I already started studying for my spanish final. :Gasp: speaking of, I should probably stop doing this and get back to that. Good luck to all with everything.

ps: All of you people who acess my site looking for pictures of the NQR really need to get a life.

Mia Hamm calls it a day
At 32 years of age, soccer ledgend Mia Hamm retires from the soccer field after a 17 year career. Along with her are captain Julie Foudy and Joy Fawcett. I wonder who will be the next Mia? My best as on Abby Wambach as the next rising star...

"Fear less, hope more;
Whine less, breathe more;
Talk less, say more;
Hate less, love more;
And all good things are yours."
~Swedish Proverb

Just for the record...
John (aka Texas) is the coolest guy ever! Not only is he a rocking guitarrist, but its awsome that he takes the time out to help other people learn guitar. He taught me some cool guitar tricks to cheat on certain chords... to bad I forgot some of the tricks already! He also let me borrow one of his books of p&w songs that has some great stuff in it. It even has The Cartoon Song by Chris Rice, which just can't be beat. It made me very happy :) The downside is that I'm going to be spending more time slacking off and not studying (like I should be right now)... but oh well. My parents said as long as I don't flunk out of school, I'm okay, and I'm definitely not anywhere close to that point, so its all gravy!

This week does suck quite a bit in terms of of school-work and regular-work. Lets go over it, shall we?

Monday: Spanish in class essay, ASL review, HFES meeting, ENP project meeting, Event Staff (note: the last 4 things all occur at the same time)
Tuesday: ENP presentation, rehersal, LOL, psych review
Wednesday: Spanish Test, Bible Study
Thursday: Psych Test, HFE Midterm, Holiday concert
Friday: Spanish Presentation, looonnngggg Event Staff Concert (Gospel Choir)

It's craziness all around pretty much. But the weekend should rock in terms of PSF shtuff. I can't wait!

"It seems it's always the crazy times..."

Newsie
The New York Times: On Campus, Hanging Out by Logging On
Looks like TheFacebook is getting some national recognition...

In other news...
It's been over three years since 9/11, and there are still 550 people being detained in Guantánamo who haven't had the right to a trial. It is true that "the United States is now engaged in a broader conflict with Al Qaeda, a terrorist organization that has a global reach" (Mr. Boyle, a government layer). It still does not make it right to hold a person for three years without trial. The current argument is over the "government's motion to dismiss the petitions of 54 detainees for habeas corpus that ask the courts to require the government to justify its detentions." So much for due process and being the land of the free.
To see the full article go to: nytimes.com

"Nothing is predestined: The obstacles of your past can become the gateways that lead to new beginnings."
~Ralph Blum

Hyperflow-tara
Definition for: tara
A goddess that the heavens can not even explain

Heehee, cool :)

I have this notion that things should just click if they're meant to be. Or maybe that's just my hopeless romantic side speaking. This notion is applicable to more than just relationships though, it should be applicable to everything... majors, friends, life decisions, and what not. But I also know that sometimes it takes deeper exploration to actually make a decision about somethings. It takes a while to get to know people, to get to know enough about a life choice. "I know that time brings change, and change takes time" sings Nichole Nordeman. I feel however, that somethings cannot, and should not, be forced after a certain time... emphasis on somethings. There are somethings worth fighting for. The hard part is figuring out what those things are. At this point, I can think of one that I'm sure about...

I believe in the kingdom come
Then all the colors will bleed into one
Bleed into one
Well yes I’m still running

You broke the bonds and you
Loosed the chains
Carried the cross
Of my shame
Of my shame
You know I believed it

But I still haven’t found what I’m looking for
But I still haven’t found what I’m looking for...

That time of year has rolled around again when students begin to worry about housing for next year. Just this past week Rina asked me if I wanted to live in a house with her on Bromfield. Housing? At this time of year? It's only thanksgiving! I regretfully declined, saying that I couldn't commit myself so early in the year. But with the arrival of the housing lottery numbers on WebCenter, the time has finally come to start thinking about next year seriously. For the second year in a row, I got the short end of the stick with a lottery number of 4812 (from a range of 5999-4500). Apparently my luck really sucks, so I guess I'm living off campus next year. I was planning on living off campus anyway, but this just really cements my decision. Helloooo landlords....

update(11/26): looks like Kerry got a good lottery number.. maybe I will be living on campus next year...

"The hard times will begin to fade, joy will take their place."
~Chinese fortune

Take Action: Close the School of the Americas

Once again it is the wee hours of the morning and I am procrastinating when I should be in bed. Seems like good time for some reflection. I really envy those who know what they want to do with their lives. As a matter of fact, I envy those who know anything about what they want. As part of my indecisiveness, I can never decide what I want. Recently I have had to decide what to major in, who I should pick as my advisor, where/if I should go abroad, what classes to take next semester, if I should date if the opportunity arises, do I want a boyfriend, what I should share with my friends about my life... really the list goes on and on. That person sure hit the nail right on the head when they said that life is just a bunch of small choices. To bad the small choices are so hard for me to make. It doesn't help that my mood or my opinions can change like the wind. And when they do, I usually end up screwing myself over, or screwing over some very nice person. If I haven't shared before, I have decided that my problem is that I look to far into things. I have trouble letting thing go and just letting them "flow," as Julie would say. Ha. Me relinquish control? Never. Maybe that's one of the reasons why I'm struggling so much with my faith right now. To "let go and let God" would mean loosing my grip on my life. I don't think I can do it. Not right now at least. What happened to the trust that I used to have in God? It disappeared somewhere over the past few weeks/days/years. If I try hard enough I can remember what it felt like to have that trust though. I feel it in short little bursts occasionally though... like at this past Friday Forum and Sunday service. It was amazing. You feel like nothing can go wrong, and even if it does, it's okay beacause God is there to protect you. I know the statement I made is true, I just have a hard time believing in it sometimes. Just give me a little direction Lord. Let me know I'm on the right path. In the lyrics of Michael W. Smith,

"If there are millions down on their knees, among the many can you still hear me? Hear me asking, 'Where do I belong? Is there a vision that I can call my own? Show me...' I'm looking for a reason, roaming through the world to find my place in this world. Not a lot to lean on, I need your light to help me find my place in this world.

I don't know about you, but I was pretty upset about the outcome of this election. Check out SorryEverybody.com to see some sympathetic people and beg for forgiveness from the world.

Poll
So I'm opening a gmail account (finally), and I need to pick out a new email adress... I was planning to make "TaraBee" my new email addy, but go figure, it's taken already. So I need everyone's help piking out another one... cast your votes in the comment seciton :) Thanks!

TaraBe (sorta like my initials)
TaraBeee
TaraBeez
TaraBees
TaraB
...any other suggestions...

::biggrin:: ahhhh... I'm so happy right now. I just came back from church and it was awsome, absolutely amazing! Our new guitarist, John (aka Texas John c.o. Emily) is so great... he's a great worship leader, has so much energy, and just rocks at guitar. Fr. O'Leary also officiated our service today, and his sermon was actually pretty good! I love this feeling, the feeling after going to a really great service. I wish church could always be this way, but I guess that's also something that's up to me, isn't it?

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there I do not sleep.

I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glint on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.

When you wake in the morning hush,
I am the swift, uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft starlight at night.

Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there, I did not die...

In memory of my Lola

I'm such a dolt. I was playing soccer tonight (as I usually do on tuesday nights), and was playing goalie (yet again). I decided to hang on the crossbar for a little bit just to stretch. Now I know that the indoor goals are really short, but then again, so am I, so I have to jump to be able to get a grip on the top of the bar. I don't know what I was doing, but on my way up, I hit the bar on my way up and proceded to jam my pinky finger on my right hand. And it's really sore. I'm such an idiot.

In other non-embarrasing news, there is a full lunar eclipse tomorrow night at 9:14pm. Go watch and revel in the moonlight! PSF is also hosting a trip to the Loj this friday to saturday. It's for anyone and everyone, and we're not doing churchy stuff, so come join us! Oh, and save the date: Next thursday, Nov 4, the Tufts Chorale and Chamber will be holding an American Folk Concert in Goddard Chapel at 8pm. Stop by as a break from studying. We have some awsome soloists. :)

As stupid and lame as the movie might look, I really enjoyed watching The Perfect Score, a movie that came out earlier this year. It basically documents a group of six kids who try to steal the answers to the SATs (more commonly know as the Suck Ass Test). While not the most intelligent movie, it had its "awwww" parts and its hilarious parts. I'd recommend watching it if you're bored and feel like taking it easy. Then again, it only cost me a dollar and four cents to rent the movie, so maybe I'm not being as harsh, but Kerry and Julie really liked it to. :) Watch it and make your own judgement.

You know, a lot of people would think these questions are difficult... not me.
- No?
No. These questions all have answers.

"Science without religion is lame, religion without sceince is blind."
~Albert Einstein

Love is never lost. If not reciprocated, it will flow back and soften and purify the heart.
~ Washington Irving

Just for kicks and giggles...
Check out Quentin Tarantino's Blog

ps: this further proves that Blogger is much cooler than Xanga and Livejournal. :D

For the sixth night in a row I'm watching the Yankees v. RedSox game. And I don't even like baseball. I just get very territorial and very competitve. Now I know that I do not live in New York City, or even New York state, but I only live 10 minutes away. That's a heck of a lot closer than a lot of other people that live in NY state. Anyway, NJ doesn't have a baseball team, so I need someone to root for. NJ and NY do share some sports teams, like the MetroStars, The Giants (who play in NJ), and now The Nets are being moved to NY. Haha, but only in New York would you need to bring police out onto the field in full riot gear. Yeah baby... Gotta love the big apple.

New Jersey is the greatest state in the country. Before I set foot on the campus three and a half years ago, I wasn't aware of this fact. I was also unaware anybody would have disdain for a place he or she has barely spent any time in. Soon, though, I learned all about the "real" New Jersey: the disgusting armpit of America, packed with landfills and highways, with Newark Airport in between.

And apparently everybody from the state is a big jerk.

I beg to differ. We've got the best beaches, the best food, the best girls and plenty of famous people representing Jersey proudly.

Standing up for Jersey, Eric Bueide

Dude. I have serious issues. I don't know why I always happen upon these problems at night when all I can do is lie in my bed and ponder about it until I fall alseep. Thinking + Night = Bad.

Things to do this semester:

1. Go to a BSO concert.
   
2. Laugh my head off at The Comedy Connection.
   
3. Visit the MFA. (Again.)
   
4. Go to the LOTR exhibition @ the Museum of Science (ends Oct 24!!! & Meet Sean Austin on Oct 16!!!)
   
5. Find some non-sketchy clubs to go to. Especially jazz and latin clubs.
   
6. Cheer like crazy New England Revolution soccer game.
   
7. Go on a duck tour.
   
8. Be amazed at all the pretty cars at the Larz Anderson Auto Museum.
   
9. Go to the Museum of Bad Art in Dedham. (Comeon, you know it would be funny.)
   
10. Stop and smell the flowers at the Arnold Arboretum in Jamaica Plain.
    
11. Embrace the geek that I am and stop by the Boston Public Library just for the heck of it.
    
12. Freeze my butt off on a whale watch or sunset harbor cruise.
    
13. Dine at some small (and delicious) restaurant that only the locals know about.
    
14. Priority number one jules!!! (You know what I'm talking about...)
    

So who has a sense of adventure?

Cute movie to watch: The Very Thought of You

I'm such a dork.

I really relish in it though. I did a psych experiment today (as part of my 6 required hours for psy 1) about Probability and Reasoning. It was basically a bunch of probablility questions. Being the math geek that I am, I actually did computations and what not. I actually asked the girl running the experiment if she had the answers to the questions. And I was actually sad because she didn't have the answers. Oh well. My geekiness will live on.

You're an interesting species, an interesting mix. You're capable of such beautiful dreams... and such horrible nightmares. You feel so lost, so cut off, so alone, only you're not. See, in all our searching, the only thing we've found that makes the emptiness bearable... is each other. ~Contact

leave it to oprah to have a good quote...

"Tomorrow is not promised, nor is today. So I choose to celebrate every day I'm alive by being present in it. Living in the present means letting go of the past and not waiting for the future."

Awwww.... I love FOCUS! Yeah Environ 1!!!!

why not?
http://www.energyaction.net/declaration/declaration.php

Climb on!
For the first time in about a year or two I went rock climbing at the Metro Rock gym in Everett. It was soooo much fun!!! Climbing really rocks my sock. (No pun intended, but its funny now that I think about it.) Katie and I had been talking about going climbing since the begining of the year, and we just decided to go for it! So we got our lesson with a staffer named Jill, who was really nice, for about 30 to 45 minutes. And then we just climbed by ourselves until 9 o'clock. So much fun, but it's really sad how little arm strength I have. I think one of the reasons why I like rock climbing so much is because it's not only great strength training, but it's also sort of like a logic puzzle. :D Gotta love when you get the best of both worlds. So after we do another belay and saftey check next time we go climbing, we'll have our safety passes! So awsome. Katie and I are planning to go climbing at least once a week. Ooo, just check out my arms next semester... ;)

"You know it's a bad school where there are no asians." ~Alex Genova

Quote du jour:
"Be weird whenever you have the chance." ~anon.

I'm feeling very reflective right now. Probably due to the fact that I just spend the last few hours playing a game with hypothetical questions. But totally seperate from that, I'm finding myself really missing some of my friend from back home right now. People just get so busy at college with school and clubs and whatnot that it's hard to keep in touch with people. I miss peoples' quirkiness, the long conversations that I've had with them, their presence. Too bad I'm not the best person for talking to on the phone. I'm just not a big phone person. But reading everyone's respective online journals makes me long for those great summer nights of deep conversation. Not like I don't have that here. I just miss some people...

Since I'm bored, and I can't do anything loud (Ker is sleeping) here are some quotes for you to dwell on for a little while...

Certain thoughts are prayers. There are moments when, whatever be the attitude of the body, the soul is on its knees.
Victor Hugo

"Complete abstinence is easier than perfect moderation."
Saint Augustine

Knowing trees, I understand the meaning of patience. Knowing grass, I can appreciate persistence.
Hal Borland

Faith is to believe what you do not see; the reward of this faith is to see what you believe."
Saint Augustine

Music washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life.
Berthold Auerbach

Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Music expresses that which cannot be said and on which it is impossible to be silent.
Victor Hugo

Muuurrrr....
It's such a gorgeous day outside! Very very good for... outdoor intramural soccer! Woohoo! Soccer rocks my socks so much. Our first game was yesterday, and it was so much fun. Granted, we didn't win, but it was still a lot of fun none-the-less. Just sorta stinks that I'll probably have a conflict with wednesday's outdoor games and bible study. Ah well, such is life.

"Life here is so elemental. So real. Without the interference of civilization you can really experience things like,...silence. Silence and darkness in its purity. Right now, right outside my window all I can see is a black void. Endless darkness. It's totally exhilarating, and I feel very lucky to be here. Very, very lucky.
~Diane Frolov and Andrew Schneider, Northern Exposure, Lost and Found, 1992

Observations of a wallflower
Strange mood that I've been in this (school) year so far. In a lot of situtions, I have found myself feeling like a bystander watching from the sidelines. Sort of involved in the conversation, but more like an observer. I don't really know why this is though. Am I distancing myself from people? Maybe I just haven't been in the mood to do the big group thing thus far. It takes so much energy just to be heard in a medium/large sized group. ::shrug:: Things change, people change, and hopefully I'm changing right a long with them... in a good way that is. Change, while usually unwelcome in my book, is inevitable and unavoidable. Change drives the human race forward, which is good, but sometimes it is just so hard to adjust. It takes such a long time for things to get the way you want them, and then by the time you get to that comfort level, things are different already.

I have so many thoughts running through my head, but at this point, I can hardly keep my eyes open. After getting minimum amounts of sleep at the awsome Frosh lock-in, and then waking up to take a test at 10 am, my brain is pretty much fried. However tired my physical body is, my mind is just so loaded right now I don't know if I'd be able to fall asleep. Well, that's not true. I just don't know if I'd want to go to sleep and lose all of these thoughts. Not like I won't have these thoughts again. It's the type of thought chain that recures a lot in your life... Where do I fit in? Who are my friends? Should I really major in this? What am I doing with my life? Et cetera, et cetera and yadda yadda yadda. As a final thought before my head hits my pillow, and also so I don't forget this event... yesterday we had communion using animal crackers. All will say is coolness.

What I learned today...
Sometimes all you need to do is just breathe.

sidebar updated

Grrr... I'm so mad at myself. Since I'm a blogger member I had the chance to open a coveted gmail account... but I never took up the offer, and now it's gone. So much for procrastination...

Soooo... anyone want to pass a gmail account invite my way?

This is why I hate the college application process. College is not a place you go because it's where your dad or grandfather went. It is not a social club. College is an institution for study and learning, period.

The Legacy of Legacies
By JEROME KARABEL
taken from the New York times, published on September 13, 2004

Berkeley, Calif. — Admissions policy is an especially popular topic on campus this time of year. As new students arrive, they inevitably ask one another the same questions: Where did you apply? Did you get in anywhere else? Why did you decide to come here?

They are personal questions, of course, often asked more out of courtesy than curiosity, but their answers reveal a story about not only America's system of higher education, but also America's ideals. President Bush appealed to these ideals last month when he acknowledged that while he was the beneficiary of a so-called legacy preference (that is, he was admitted to Yale in part because other members of his family had gone there), he believed that admission to college "ought to be based on merit."

It is an admirable goal. Yet the persistence of legacy preferences may not be fully appreciated by either Mr. Bush or his opponent, John Kerry, who has also called for their abolition - and whose father also went to Yale. If America is to take advantage of this rare bipartisan opportunity to end this form of affirmative action for the privileged, it may be helpful to know the full story of legacy preferences in general and Mr. Bush's in particular.

In the fall of 1963, George W. Bush was a senior at Phillips Academy in Andover, Mass., facing the same dilemma confronting his 232 classmates: where to apply to college. He had never made the honor roll, and his verbal score on the SAT was a mediocre 566. Although popular among his classmates, he was neither an exceptional athlete nor did he possess any particularly outstanding extracurricular talents. Looking over his record, Andover's dean of students suggested that the young Mr. Bush consider applying to schools other than Yale, the alma mater of his father and grandfather.

But unbeknownst to the dean and Mr. Bush, Yale had quietly changed its admissions policy toward alumni sons during the very months when his application was under consideration. As the number of applicants to Yale increased, the administration decided that it could no longer afford to treat all legacy applicants equally. Instead, it would differentiate among alumni sons, giving extra preference on the basis of the family's contribution to Yale and its importance to American society.

As the son of a prominent Texas oilman then running for the United States Senate - and the grandson of a United States senator from Connecticut who had recently served as a member of the Yale Corporation - George W. Bush was no ordinary applicant. In April 1964, he was accepted to Yale - unlike 49 percent of all alumni sons who applied that year.

Less than two years later, in an abrupt change in policy, Yale's new dean of admissions, R. Inslee Clark, presided over a radical reduction in legacy preference. By 1967, Mr. Clark's second year in office, the proportion of alumni sons in the freshman class plummeted to 12 percent from 17 percent in the class of 1968, George W. Bush's class.

The reaction of the alumni was swift and furious. By the end of 1966, the alumni were in open revolt, and Yale's alumni board hastily formed a special committee to investigate the matter. In 1967, William F. Buckley, an alumnus then running an insurgent campaign for a seat on the Yale Corporation, declared that Yale had ceased to be the "kind of place where your family goes for generations" and had been transformed into an institution where "the son of an alumnus, who goes to a private preparatory school, now has less chance of getting in than some boy from P.S. 109 somewhere."

In truth, Yale had not eliminated the legacy preference even under Mr. Clark. But the new dean had brought the admissions rate of legacy applicants closer to that of non-legacy applicants than at any point in Yale's history. By 1970, Mr. Clark was gone, and by 1974 - just as a major fund-raising effort was beginning - the legacy preference was even stronger than when George W. Bush and John F. Kerry had applied more than a decade earlier.

Yale's chief competitors, Harvard and Princeton, took due note of the turmoil created by this radical experiment, and neither ever tried an admissions policy remotely as meritocratic as Yale's under Dean Clark. (Recently, both Harvard and Princeton have admitted legacy applicants at a rate more than triple that of non-legacy applicants.)

The consequences of the Yale episode are with us still, for the elite colleges drew from it the lesson that the costs of seriously encroaching on alumni privileges are simply too high. Because of the elite universities' investment in the current system, change is unlikely to come from within. But President Bush's denunciation of legacy preference may well have set in motion a public debate that will bring about the demise of this anachronistic policy.

A useful first step would be consideration of a bill introduced last fall by Senator Edward Kennedy that would require universities "to publish data on the racial and socioeconomic composition of legatees." So, too, would a requirement that universities disclose the admission rate of legacies and non-legacies as a way of casting a spotlight on a policy that is, in the end, indefensible.

Such legislation may not end legacy preferences. But it would subject them to the public scrutiny befitting a democratic society - a scrutiny that could well be fatal.

Jerome Karabel, a professor of sociology at the University of California at Berkeley, is the author of the forthcoming book "The Chosen: Admission and Exclusion at Harvard, Yale, and Princeton, 1900 to Today."

Hahaha... now I don't know if it's funny in general or if it's funny because it's 2:30 in the morning, but you all HAVE to watch Chayanne's new video for Torero. It's an absolutely great song, but the video is so hilariously over the top, it's great! Here's the link, hope you love it!!!

To play JV soccer or not to play JV soccer... that is the question. Or rather, push myself to the max and be worm out while being able to play the sport that I love so much, or just play intramurals and stay a little saner. At dinner I saw a table tent advertising for Eco Representative, and even before I could say anything Julie said, "Tara, no. You don't have the time." Which is pretty much true. I'm always torn between doing a lot of things and half-assing some of them, or picking the things that are most important and doing really well in them. Ugh, I'm so indecisive.

On a more positive note, there were 10 of us at Bible Study tonight, which just rocks my socks. On a stranger note, there were as many guys as girls tonight, which never happens, but was really cool. The two new frosh (Steve and Chris) seem really cool. Yeaaahhh PSF!

"Faith is in many ways like a wheelbarrow. You have to put some real push behind it to make it work." ~Anon.

Woah. I just spent the past hour and a half taking care of a totally trashed person. (note the time of the post). So not fun. People, please learn your limits and drink responsibly.

In a total 180, PSF had their first worship service of the year today (Sunday in my mind), and it went so well!!! There were about 35 people there and the singing went really well and some of the freshman were super enthusiastic about comming back. It was great!!! Keep in mind that this is a super transitionhal year losing our old chaplin, and importantly, losing Andy. Andy was our worship leader who had been with us for a ridiculously long time, which equals 15 years or something like that. But anyway, can't wait till next Sunday!!!

"Instead of measuring your life's value by your progress toward a single goal, remember that the direction you're headed in is more important than temporary results."
Anthony Robbins

"Always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of somebody else."
Judy Garland

In Ecclesiastes 3 it says that there is a time fore everything, including a time to dance. I went to the ballroom open house-thingy tonight, and it just made me realize how much I miss ballroom. Or rather how much I miss dancing. I really want to get back into it, but it is just so much time. Is right now my time to dance, or is it time for me to buckle down and concentrate on my school work. Thinking of ballroom also sort of reminds me of another passion I haven't been able to persue, which is singing in an a capella group. I can't decide if I want to try out again. There is the huge time commitment to think about, and also the fact that I don't know if I can take another blow to my ego if I don't get in. Garrrr, decisions, decisions... There is not enough time in the day.

Well I am back at Tufts and I have to say that my sophomore year is kicking ass already, thanks to some great people in FOCUS!!!! To recap, I was a leader this year for a pre-orientation program called FOCUS, which is centered around community service (hence the CUS in FOCUS.) Besides all of my fellow leaders who are awsome, my FOCUSers totally rocked my socks! Annonshay, Cheba, Drey, Tom-Tom, Ele, Turkish, and Emaroo (Shannon, Sonny, Tom, Elenor, Zach, and Emily) were definitely the best group ever! Not only were they totally low stress, but they also play a mean game of sexual fantasy and zip-zap-bang. Our projects were pretty kick ass too. Day 1: Worked with the Charles River Conservancy group cutting down stuff. Day 2: Helped out at the Everett 'Back to the River' Festival (ie: did nothing). Day 3: Gardened at the Somerville Growing Center. Day 4: Painted a couple of maps of the Mystic Watershed... while painting our own shirts at the same time. :) OooOoo! There was also Rina, my rockin' co-leader... never give her an energy drink by the way. ;) I'd have to say good times all around. Can't wait till next year!

Woohoo!!! I'm 19!!! ::bigGrin::

What a great summer for concerts. I saw DMB twice in NY, I'm going to see John Mayer and Maroon 5 in a week, and yesterday I saw Barenaked Ladies and Alanis Morisette give a rockin' concert at the Mann Center in Philly.

Now I've always liked BNL, Stunt is one of the few CDs that I own that I can acutally listen to all the way through. Seeing them in concert has given me a new found likeness for them though. They are just such great performers! Not to mention that they are all freaking hilarious. From their antics on stage to the short animated clips that they showed inbetween songs... they are just a great band to see in concert.

Since BNL and Alanis are co-headlining this tour, they take turns closings, and and the show I went to, it was Alanis' turn to close. One of the reasons whyI liked Alanis when she first came out was because she was, well, different. She wasn't like all of the other pop divas out there. But with her new album and image, I'd have to say that she's a little bit too mainstream now, which is sort of disappointing. Regardless, I still loved her. She did a lot of songs from Jagged Little Pill, which I think most people would agree is her best album. She also did some of my favorite songs from her more recent albums, like "So Pure" and "Thank You" and "Uninvited." Ah, and she encored with "You Learn"... it was so great! Everyone was singing along... I had forgotten how great her first album is! ::BigGrin:: Oh how I love concerts.

You have to go see Harold and Kumar go to White Castle! It was so freaking hilarious... and you always have to love the typical asian stereotypes. Or is it only funny to me because I'm asian? :) Anyway it is a must see, it definitely gets two thumbs up from me. Go see it an support your fellow asians!!!
ps: did I mention that John Cho is cute?

In other news, Bond, a female string quartet, will be playing at BB Kings this monday and tuesday. In case you have never heard of them, they are a fabulous group of young talented women that play classical music with a twist. The shows will start at 8 pm both nights, and tickets are $20.50 in advance. Anyone want to go? Plleeaasseeee????

still looking for a place... It's hard to comeback to a place where everyone has changed, including yourself. I feel like I have to rediscover myself and my friends every summer, and every winter vacation. I have to figure out where I fit in all over again. I guess it just enforces the age old rule that change is inevitable. Too bad I'm not big on change.

Yo! You have to check out "The APL Song" by The Black Eyed Peas... it's about being filipino! Which is just cool by my standards. I'll write a further review on it later, but until then you can check it out on launch radio

I'm baaaccckkk!!! My plane touched down at Newark airport at 8:45 this morning. Pretty uneventful trip back home, ooo, but all of the security that we had to go through in Manilla was ridiculous. Had to go through a metal detector, get my bags x-rayed, get frisked, then through another metal detector and bag scan, had to empty out all of my carry-on's, take off my shoes, and then get frisked again. It was a tad ridiculous, and it made us late for our plane. Fortunately the plane was delayed, so we didn't miss it. I also slept for a full six hours on the plane from Manilla to LA, which is just unheard of for me, so I'm happy about that too.

Coming home is really bittersweet though. I missed my mom and dad a lot, but I wish I could have stayed longer than three weeks. Especially considering that I only get to go to the Philippines every few years or so. Getting to see all of my family was really great. Not to mention seeing my grandparents, who are all in Cebu. Oooo, and my three little cousins, who are the cutest. Ah, I miss them already. One of my cousins took a bunch of picutres with her digital camera, so I'll try and post them up somewhere once she sends them to me.

So what else did I do in the Philippines... My trip to Shangri-La was great. My cousins and I even got to go snorkling for free! We went and fed fish around the coral reefs... it was so cool. You would just hold the bread out infront of you and then all the fish would swarm all around you and just take food from your hand. It was a little scary at first, but the fish were just so beautiful. We also went to another resort called Maribago Blue Cove, which was just a day-trip, but still realyl nice. My younger cousins were also able to come to Maribago since it was the weekend, so it was super fun.

I really wish it was cheaper to fly to the Philippines... because if it was I would go back every single year, but alas, the tickets are ridiculously expensive. Being far away from family really stinks... you miss so much of eachother's lives. Seeing everyone every 3 to 4 years definitely does not cut it. It's still better than every 10 years though. I guess I'll just keep on working on trying to everyone to come visit us over here in the States. :)

"Happiness is not a destination. It is a method of life."
~Burton Hills

Greetings from the Republic of the Philippine Islands! It's 11AM over here in Cebu, and I'm alive and kickin'! :) My trip to the Philippines is going really well so far. I've been doing a lot of shopping, and a whollleee lot of family time. I'm staying wiht my aunt an uncle who have three girls, 7, 10, and 14. Haha, the littles ones are so cute, but they certainly are a handful sometimes. Not to mention all of my other little cousins. So what else have I been doing here that's noteworthy...  The first night I arrived we had a party in honor of my lolo and lola's (ie: grandpa and grandma) 65th aniversary. It seems that everytime I come home I meet more relatives that I never knew I had. There was this guy that performed in drag... he was so hilarious! I don't think my little cousins appreciated it though, :) haha, but that's okay. Let's see... I went ballroom dancing two nights at this place called Inner Circle, so much fun. It made me realize how much I miss ballroom. I wich I had my ballroom shoes though, the stupid shoes I wore the second night bruised my achilles on my right foot and it's been hurting for a few days. Um, I went to my aunt's beach house in Oslob, it's another town in Southern Cebu. It was really nice.. the weather wasn't too hot, and the water was perfect. Ah, that's the thing about the Philippines, not only is it hot, but it's sooooooo humid. I really think humid heat is the worst type of heat. Other than that, I've just been relaxing and going out. I went karaoking last night, saw a movie the night before that, and have just been catching up with all of my cousins... Later today I'm leaving for a resort called Shangri La, and I'm staying there until wednesday. I'm so excited! It's such a nice place... anyway, that's it for now, I've been on this computer for too long. Ta ta for now!

So it's my last night at home... at least for a little while. Tomorrow at 2pm my flight leaves for the Philippines. Man, I really can't wait to go back home, I haven't been back in such a long time. I really miss my family. Anyway, if it seems like I've dropped off the face of the earth, at least now you'll know why. I'll be back July 30th, so until then, ya'll be good, and don't have too much fun without me. :)

Ooooo. So excited. I just found out that Sahara, an adventure book by Clive Cussler (one of my favorite authors), is being turned into a movie! How fun is that?! And another good tidbit, Dirk Pitt (the protagonist) is being played by Matthew McConaughey, a very talented and cute actor if I say so myself. But truely, I'm pushing this movie because Clive Cussler is a really talented author. He really knows what he's talking about with all of the technology that he writes about in his books, and the plots are well paced and interesting. I've always thought that his books are the type that you just can't put down once you've picked it up. For more info on the movie and book check out:

theZreview.co.uk
CusslerMen
Sahara
Yahoo Movies

To start off with a little background, I quit my job at Claire's because they wouldn't give me the 2nd and the 3rd of July off. For a while I was wondering if it was really worth it to quit for these two days... It definitely worth it. Instead of working for those two days, I got to see two awsome Dave Matthews Band concerts at SPAC (Saratoga Performing Arts Center). My Gosh. The concerts were soooo good. I had seen a Dave and Friends concert back in December, but now I'm convinced that nothing can beat Dave Matthews and his band. The energy was great, the sets we're amazing, and the crowd and the band were so into it. Hahaha, all of the drunk people just added to my amusement. :) It was sort funny though, as soon as Dave started played Crash on the second night, all of the couples in SPAC hugged eachother, etc. It was cute. Oh, and I have to say that there was a plethora of good looking people at the concerts. Go figure.

Besides the two concerts, we spent saturday-day at Lake George. I had never been there before, but I definitely want to go back. It is such a pretty town, and the lake is gorgeous. After having brunch at a cafe-type-place on the water, we rented a boat for an hour and cruised around the lake. :D I forgot how much fun boats are. And the water was the perfect temperature! Everyone else said it was a little cold, but it was nothign compared to the freezing water that I swam in at Belmar a few weeks ago. After boating we played a round of mini-golf at the Pirates Cove (where I was the winner, thankyouverymuch), and got to see Van-the-rolling-pirate tumble town the hill at the 17th hole. Hahaha, good times all around, and definitely a weekend to remember.

For your viewing pleasure, here are the set lists for those two nights...

Friday, July 1st Don’t Burn The Pig The Stone Don’t Drink the Water (into...) New Song #4 Help Myself Recently Song That Jane Likes New Song #3 Intro Rhyme & Reason Hmm ? [New] Grey Street New Song #1 What Would You Say Cry Freedom New Song #2 When The World Ends Ants Marching ---((ENCORE))--- Best of Whats Around Tripping Billies

Saturday, July 3rd Everyday So Much To Say (into...) Too Much New Song #1 Granny Warehouse One Sweet World New Song #4 Drive In Drive Out Bartender New Song #3 Where Are You Going Jimi Thing New Song #2 Crash Rapunzel ---((ENCORE))--- Bass Intro (into...) Crush Stay

Looks like it could be fun. I'm not going to be here, but as for the rest of you...

Looking for extras
for independent feature-length film

FILM NAME: GLOW ROPES

DATE: JULY 21ST 2004

TIME: 9 AM-12PM
12:45PM-6:30PM

WHERE: ACADEMY OF THE HOLY ANGELS,
DEMEREST, NJ

Men and Women Ages 35-65
Children Ages 14–30


SCENE: Shooting Wedding Reception Party Scene.

Proper attired A MUST, Some Tuxedos available for men

Pay: N/A, will feed

All interested must contact Rob or Giselle @ 201.227.0874.

Extras showing up without prior notification will not be admitted due to insurance and saftey matters.

Thank you.

Glow Ropes Producers

gotten off of craigslist.com

As I'm sure you have all heard, Michael Moore's new documentary, Fahrenheit 9/11, premiered in theaters on Thursday. I myself saw it on Friday in NYC. I have to say that I really liked the movie. And furthermore, I loved seeing the movie with a theater full of New Yorkers. Never having seen any of his films before, I would say that on the whole I really like his style. To borrow words from my sister, he is very witty and entertaining. While I will fully admit that the movie is very one sided, and I'm sure that many things were taken out of context, it taught me a lot of things that I did not know previously. Example: the entire situation with Bin Laden's family. I didn't really have the patience or the interest to keep up with all that was happening at the time, mainly because it fell into the realm of politics to me, which I don't really follow all that well.
I think more than anything the movie made me angry and pissed off, for many various reasons. Or rather, it just made me angrier... at Bush, at being in Iraq, for all the uneccesary deaths, for the ignorance of some Americans. As much as I was laughing at some parts of the movie, I'm sure I cried as many times. Having all of the information and memories rehashed in 2 hours was just a bit much. It'll be quite interesting to see the effects of the movie in the days to come as more and more people see it. And to say one last thing, I really do agree with my sister and Felicia's view points when they say that this movie will not really swing people over to the anti-Bush side though... the movie is way too biased to do that. But then again, I guess it really depends what the point of the movie is.
Before make a decision on Fahrenheit however, see it yourself, form your own opinions. And as always, keep an open mind... That being said, let's get this idiot out of the oval office, shall we?

Saw Avenue Q today. I must say that it was one of the funniest things that I've seen in a long time. To give a short synopsis, without giving away any of the musical, it's basically like Sesame Street for adults. The actors/puppeteers were absolutely great, and I can't wait to see it again. Apparently rush tickets are only $20... anyone game?

Meant To Live

Fumbling his confidence
And wond’ring why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he’s meant for more than arguments
And failed attempts to fly, fly

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

Dreaming about Providence
And whether mice or men have second tries
Maybe we’ve been livin with our eyes half open
Maybe we’re bent and broken, broken

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

We want more than this world’s got to offer
We want more than this world’s got to offer
We want more than the wars of our fathers
And everything inside screams for second life

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live
We were meant to live

The Fabulous Adventures of Tara, Leigh, Nicole, and Felicia

Ahhh. What a great day. After much thought and planning (ie: an hour before hand), I decided that it would be a perfect day for a hike. The weather was absolutely perfect, not too hot and not too cold. After calling around and a few minor setbacks, the four of us hit the road and headed off to Ringwood State Park. Not really having the best directions, it took us a little longer than expected to get there, but car rides are always fun wiht the girls so it was okay. I think we ended up getting to the park around 2 pm or some time around there. We hiked, or rather walked, around for a bit, stopped to eat lunch, walked around some more, and then decided to take our travels to another part of the park.

We decided to go to Shepard Lake, a part of the part that Leigh swore that we had been to before. It's basically a litte lake where you can swim and boat and picnic and what not. We got lost again, thanks to everyone telling me to turn left. As we have now learned, turning left is not always the right decision, ::coughcough:: nicole. We roll up the the gate around 3:50ish, and seeing that there was a toll, stopped and told the park ranger that we were just going to turn around. Heeelllooo Mister Ranger. Hahaha. Leigh told me to stop the car (I did) and ask him what time the park closed (which I also did). His reply? And I quote, "I should be getting out of here at 4." Now why would he answer my question in such a manner? I'll just let you mull that over for a bit... As soon as we got out of sight, we all burst out laughing. Leigh kept telling me to turn the car around so we could go 'talk' to the Ranger, but I was laughing way too hard to make and sort of decision at the moment. At Nicole's suggestion, we decided to go back a bit after four, she/we figured that we'd be able to just go park and not pay since the Ranger dude wouldn't be working anymore.

Lo and behold, the Ranger wasn't working when we went back a few minutes later, although he was standing off to the side with his car... haha, I almost didn't know what to do then. I'm silly, but we knew that already. We decided to check out the boating options ($10 per hour, per boat, fyi), and then decided to go mess around on the playground for a bit. Sometime after the boat-shtuff and before the playground, I stole one of Leigh's birkenstocks and proceeded to float it in the lake, and then she proceeded to empty the remainder of her water bottle on my back. Sorta not cool might I add. Hahaha, during this time (this is all according to Nicole), apparently the lifegaurd that was on duty, but not really doing anything, "was checking us out." Now I know this doesn't seem particularly humerous to you, but just the way that nicole described it, the entire sitting-and-then-leaning-back-to-look-at-something situation, it was extreemly humerous. :D trust me on this one. So to wrap up our time at he lake, we went to the playground, went back to the beach and played in the water for a bit, (the water was prety warm considering), and then headed home.

To sum it up, very fun day. Why do I feel that it's important to share this with you all? I don't really. I don't have this blog to cater to all of my non-existent adoring fans, it's more of a way to keep track of the interesting stories that occur during my life. If you know me well, you know that I have a bad memory, and this is one way of keeping some of my good memories alive. :Shrug: Nothing more and nothing less... do with it what you please, and have a nice day. :)

to all of my HS choir-mates...

"Be like a duck. Calm on the surface, but always paddling like the dickens underneath."
~Michel Caine

I feel like watching The Last Samurai is especially pertinent at a time like this. I just watched the movie for the first time tonight, and I have to say it is one of the best movies that I have seen in a while. Something about the concept of honor so powerful to me. Hand to hand combat... actually knowing and facing your enemy... there's a certain nobility to it, a certain civility I know that war can never truely be civil, but in some cases, all you need to do is push a button and away your enemy goes. Sometime you never know who you are truely fighting... yeah. don't really know where I'm going with that thread. But to wrap things up, excellent movie. You should watch it.

Working in retail sucks for a few reasons. One of these problems is having to deal with shoplifters and potential shoplifters. As guilty as some people may seem, or actually are, I cannot bring myself to follow people around the store and watch their every move. I know it's part of my job, but I still can't do it. I remember how it feels to be followed around a store, and it's not a cool feeling. It's actually sort of degrading. But I guess it is the only way to prevent shoplifters. I just wish I could push that responsibility on someone else. I guess I also try to see the good in everyone, and ignore the bad things that they can do. How naive.

::Grin:: What a good weekend. My cousin Jasmine's wedding was this saturday in Long Island. The ceremony (it was actaully their second ceremony) was very simple, but very nice... using some of the filipino traditions. The reception was really nice too. Johnathan (Jasmine's new husband and my new cousin), is one of the nicest and coolest guys that I have met so far. Speaking of, he did the cutest thing at a the reception where he sang the L-O-V-E song, at at each of the four letters he had one of his brother's make the shape of the letter (think YMCA style) and then they all did a little dance for her. Haha, it was so cute! Can I marry someone that will do that at my wedding? ;) I also got to ballroom dance with my cousin Carlitos, which was the funnest ever (he used to compete fyi).

I think I enjoyed the wedding weekend so much because I was able to see so many relatives that I haven't seen in at least a few years. This is the first time in at 3 or 4 years that this many Espiritu's have gotten together. A lot of my cousins live in florida (my one aunt has 6 kids alone), and all of the kids in this one family are above the age of 26, and two of the brother's are married already. And my gosh, let me tell you my nieces and nephews are the cutest things ever! (The titles of niece and nephew refer also to the children of my cousins) The last time I saw any of them they were walking around in diapers, and now one of my oldest nephews, Christian, is 6!

Going back to the night of the wedding, after a bunch of us changed, me, my sister and my three other cousins went out to a diner and catch up with eachother. We ended up getting back at around two after sharing an odd assortment of food, and then all of us, minus my one cousin Tina, went back to our hotel room to sleep. Six of us intended in a room for four, haha, that's the way to do it. :D The following morning, we all had a final brunch at my Auntie Norma's house, an absolutely adorable house in L.I. After more munching and talking, it was finally time to go our seperate ways again. As much as I love my friend's, nothing really compares to family. The older I get, the more I appreciate the huge family and extended family that I have, and the more I cannot imagine having it any other way. With family you can joke about things that you did when you were little, or the odd idiosyncrasies that your parents share. There's a connection there that cannot compare to anything else, and that nothing else can ever fill.

Face lost in the crowd
Feet wandering empty streets
Voice crying out loud
Heart aching with every beat

Someone searching
Searching for someone
Everywhere and endlessly
Wishing, waiting
Could there be someone?
Searching for
Someone searching

Soul battered and bruised
Pride wounded and left for dead
Ears deaf to good news
Eyes tear-drenched and sleepless red

Oh I hear the cry
And I know the pain
Can it be denied?
That everyone has been
And will be someone searching

Love standing alone
Hands scarred by the nails of hate
Hope suffering long
Faith urging it's not too late

Someone searching
Searching for someone
Everywhere and endlessly
Loving, longing
Always there's someone
Searching for someone
Someone searching

oh the things you do when you're bored...

-- UNIQUE --

1. Nervous Habits? ripping things up, biting my skin
2. Are you double jointed? nope
3. Can you roll your tongue? umn, I can do the hotdog thing, but not the clover thing
4. Can you raise one eyebrow at a time? just the left one
5. Can you blow spit bubbles? i think so
6. Can you cross your eyes? - yup
7. Tattoos? - nope, as long as you don't include henna, which I'm guessing not
8. Piercings and where? - one in each ear, but I do pierce other people on a regular basis! >:)
9. Do you make your bed daily? - at school, yes. at home, never.

-- CLOTHES --

10. Which shoe goes on first? I don't know.
11. Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone? all the time, but never out of real anger.
12. On the average, how much money do you carry in your purse/wallet? in terms of cash, anthing from nothing to around 80 bucks
13. What jewelry do you wear 24/7? - does my cross count?
14. Favorite piece of clothing? - hmmm i dunno my flip flops maybe

-- FOOD --

15. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? - twirl
16. Have you ever eaten Spam? - dude, I'm filipino. of course. it's really not that bad
17. Favorite ice cream flavor? - choco chip cookie dough and coffee royal (coffee with fude swirls) ... yummmmm
18. How many cereals in your cabinet? right now, I think just two or three
19. What's your favourite beverage? vanilla chai lattes, iced or hot
20. What's your favorite restaurant? mmm... it used to be East, but I'm not sure anymore.
21. Do you cook? yup, but I like to bake more

-- GROOMING --

22. How often do you brush your teeth? at least twice a day
23. Hair drying method? towel and then hair dryer
24. Have you ever colored/highlighted your hair? yup, I used to semi-permantently dye my hair all the time.

-- MANNERS --

25. Do you swear? sometimes when I'm really pissed. I try not to though.
26. Do you ever spit? haha, yeah. I got that bad habit from soccer. oh well.

-- WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE --

27. Animal?- puppies!!
28. Food?- chocolate or pasta
29. Month?- August just because it's when I was born
30. Day?- saturday
31. Cartoon?- mmm, don't have one. I love disney stuff though. and pixar (if that counts)
32. Shoe Brand?- don't really care. it really depends what I'm going to be using the shoes for.
33. Subject in school?- math or science. last semster it was ASL though.
34. Color?- blue
35. Sport?- Soccer!!! or Football as it's more commonly known.
36. TV show?- ALIAS all the way.
37. Thing to do in the spring?- enjoy the nice weather
38. Thing to do in the summer?- work, hang out with friends and family, relax, read... whoops, thats more than one. is that allowed?
39. Thing to do in the fall?- play soccer!
40. Thing to do in the winter?- go sleding and get in massive snow ball fights

-- IN AND AROUND --

41. The CD player?- Furthermore by JoC
42. Person you talk most on the phone with?- hmm... maybe Julie
43. Ever taken a cab?- yup
44. Do you regularly check yourself out in store windows and mirrors?- occasionally
45. What color is your bedroom?- white, pink, green, blue, and purple. (I sponge painted my room all these bright nasty colors when I was eight... don't ask)
46. Do you use an alarm clock? ? mhmm
47. Window seat or aisle? ? window usually

-- LA LA LAND --

48. What's your sleeping position?- usually on my side
49. Even in hot weather do you use a blanket?- always
50. Do you snore?- I don't think so
51. Do you sleepwalk?- nope
52. Do you talk in your sleep?- haha, yes. Apparently I had a 5 minute long conversationg with Kerry once...
53. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?- always. Puffy(my rabbit), Bobo(my bear), Emily(my mouse), and my baby pillow
54. How about with the light on?- no, I like it really dark
55. Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on?- sometimes with the tv on, but hardly ever.

-- WHICH IS BETTER --

56. Coke or Pepsi? can't taste the difference
57. Oranges or apples? either
58. One pillow or two? Two
59. Deaf or blind? well I'm already partially deaf. I think I would be really sad if I lost anymore of my hearing because I love music so much. But honestly, I really don't know.
60. Pools or hot tubs? pools
61. Tall or short? short!
62. TV or radio? tv
63. Beach or pool? beach of course. You can't body surf in a pool
64. Tic-Tacs or Certs? tic-tacs (the orange and ligh green ones)
65. Snooze button or jump out of bed? snooze and radio. I only jump out of bed after I've hit the snooze a few times and I'm late.
66. Sunrise or sunset? both are breath-taking
67. Hamburger or cheeseburger? cheeseburger
68. Morning or night? definitely a child of the night
69. Sports or news? news, unless it's soccer.
70. Indoors or outdoors? outdoors
71. Christmas Eve or Christmas Day? Eve
72. Cake or ice cream? ice cream
73. Spearmint or peppermint? peppermint, spearmint is gross
74. Bath or shower? shower usually.
75. Book or movie? love both, but you can't beat a good book.
76. Green or red apples? green
77. Rain or snow? warm rain
78. Nike or Adidas? adidas

-- WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU --

79. Took a shower? last night
80. Cried? friday night
81. Talked on the phone? a few hours ago
82. Read a book? last night
83. Punched someone? Don't remember. I've never punched someoen with the intention of hurting them though.

-- THE FUTURE --

84. Where do you see yourself in 10 years? lets see... when I'm 28 I think I'll be married. besides that, I have no idea. Working probably if I don't have kids. I have a feeling that I'll be a stay at home mom eventually.

among other things, for my birthday you can get me a...

Airzooka!! haha, these things are sweet... they're quite genius in their simplicity :D

Man, I've been living at Claire's this past week, it's really quite sad. I think I've worked three or four 1:30 to close shifts for this past week. Close meaning that I usually leave around 10:45 earliest, or even as late as 11:45... its bits quite a bit I tell ya. Haha, I think the worst part is that I spend more waking hours at Claire's than I do at home. So 1:30 to 11:30 is 10 hours, give or take a few. I'f I go to bed at 2:30/3 AM, thats roughly 3 hours. And if I wake up at 11 AM and leave for work again at 1 PM, thats another 2 hours, which makes a total of 5 hours... yup, I'm definitely living at Claire's. One good thing is that I think I'll have over 40 working hours for this week, and anything I work over 40 hours I get paid time-and-a-half for. Sweeeettt.

On a semi-related topic, I really detest some people that come into the store. Mostly little kids. Well, not little, little kids, but say around 10/11... ya know, that age. When you take something out to look at it or knock something down, just don't leave it on the floor!!! How does that make sense at all? At that age, you should really know better. I sort of want to blame the parents for not teaching their kids better. Spoiled little brats.

Okay, new concert anouncement...

BOND
August 9, 2004
B.B. King Blues Club & Grill, NYC
$20.50 (Gen Adm)

For the uninformed, Bond is a female string quartet that plays classical music with a modern spin... good times all around. So do I have any takers?

My gosh. Guess how many hours I worked today. 10. geez. I was sloted for the 1:30-close shift today, closing being sometime around 9:30 because that's when the mall closes and we can start cleaning up, doing paperwork, etc etc. So usually it takes about an hour max to close down the store, but man, two hours tonight! I blame it on the fact that Laur and I have never closed by ourselves together... we were a tad confused. Okay, more than a tad. We finally finished up with some help from Jessica, one of the managers at the Icing. But then there was still clean up. Tell me, what is so freaking hard about putting something back after you look at it?! It's really not that hard. But oh no really, I live to clean up after customers that are slobs. The majority aren't, most of them are actually nice, but the ones that are make it so tiresome to get the store back in order. ::scowl:: Hahaha, then there was also the fact that neither of us knew where the dumpster was, so after asking a security gaurd, then wandering around the inards of the GSP mall, we finally convinced a CVS manager to show us the way, which was nice of him. But when it comes down to it all, it's my job, and I'm getting paid. Granted it's only a meager $7.15 an hour (I think), but 10 hrs * $7.15 = $71.50... well thats before taxes anyway. Things could be worse :) so no more complaining... at least not for now.

I just finished reading Footprints of God by Greg Iles. Contrary to some first thoughts you may have had, it is not a religious book. In a one sentence summary, the book is half a half narrative of the main character, and deals with the creation of a supercomputer that actually thinks. It's a pretty good read, I would reccomend it to anyone who's looking for a new book to read. It felt really nice to just lounge around and read, something that I haven't been able to do at all at Tufts. On a side note, I feel sorta lost now that I'm back home. Sort of like I don't know what to do with myself or something of the sort. I just feel very... disjointed from Teaneck. But I guess that can be expected after comming back home from college.

What is wrong with America?!? Why are Latoya and Fantasia in the bottom two??? They are the two best people still in the competition!!! Dammit, even Jasmine knows that she does not still deserve to be on the show!!! Stupid idiotic people...

I am officially done with my freshamn year of college at Tufts.... WOOHOO!!!!

Woah! was not expecting a new blogger layout... totally took me by surprise! anyway, on to the rease subject of this post.

After wating about a year for the moving to come out, A Wrinkle In Time premiered on ABC today care of A Wonder World of Disney. In case you don't know, A Wrinkle In Time is a children's book written my author Madeline L'Engle. And in my opinion, it is one of the best books out there (not to mention her other books which are also great). I was really excited to see this movie one, because It's one of my favorite childhood books, and two, Gregory Smith is in it (he plays Ephram Brown in Everwood). Let me just say that I am so disappointed. Whoever directed/produced the movie should be shot for many various reasons. The biggest reason of all is that they hardly stayed true to the book! I HATE that!!! The book is such a great piece of work to begin with, why change it?!?! I hate when people mess up great books by turning them in to only decent movies. Grrrr... If I were Madeline L'Engle, I would be pissed off like all hell right now. And as much as I love Gregory Smith as an actor, where do they get off casting someone as Calvin that doesn't have red hair? That is a vital part of his character! I do admit that Gregory played the part well, but the physical charactertics are just not there, and they are so important to Calvin's character. Grr again. But now I have to go study for my spanish final. I might have to purge that awful rendition by reading the book again though...

Well said

Just a short one
There's a show on CBS called JAG, short for Judge Advocate General, which deals with the military matters. Tonight's eppy dealt with a marine that died during combat, and they had a sequence that showed his body being dressed in uniform in preparation for burial. Man, I just broke down. And again at the burial scene... While I know that the show is just fiction, the story is just too similar to what is going on in Iraq right now. How many more people are going to die before this war is over? I know that I am not the most informed about the war, but really... it's just heartbreaking to think about it.

Alanis Morissette is by far one of the best femal artists there is out there. There is something so blunt and personal about her lyrics that is just so great and refreshing. Not to mention great melodies and harmonies. I swear though, every time I listen to Unsent, I sit there listening to her singing and think, "Wow. Every single line of this song is applicable to relationships I've had before." Not romantic relationships now, well not all of them, but platonic ones too. She sings/writes everything that I have ever wanted to say, and oh man, how much I would love to say some of those things to some people. It's not even things I would say though, It's things that I feel, or have felt. By opening up herself and her experiences to us (her fans), it's so much easier to lose yourself in the music, because you know that she has went through everything that you have went though. I wonder what it must be like to listen to her music and realize that she's singing about you. Man... what a trip.

Gosh, just when you think things are down and out and that you are a complete dolt, there is nothing like the Bible to put things in perspective for you.

We will run and not grow weary, we will walk and not faint. For the Lord will go before us, and His joy will be our strength! Mounting up on wings like eagles, as our spirits start to soar, and we come into His presence, and we wait upon the Lord. We will wait upon the Lord, for in His presence is fullness of joy! And our strength will be restored, as we wait upon the Lord.

Can you find the source code for this website? If you can... tell me!!! I hate not knowing how to do things...

oh, and another thing. I have an extra Jars of Clay ticket for May 22... any takers?

why can't I see people's comments on my last post? Grr... I think I want to change my commenting system. Anyone have any suggestions?

stolen from Nor's xanga:
Post a memory of me, any memory, as a comment. Then do the same in your lj/blog/whathaveyou to see what others remember about you.

thought of the day
actually, I thought of this a few days ago.

If you know me reasonably well, you know that I really want a dog. A few days ago I was rationalizing this in my head, and decided that one of the reasons I want a dog is because they love you unconditionally. Then I thought, "Hey! That's just like Jesus! He loves me unconditionally too!" Does that mean that dogs are the physical embodiements of God's divine spirit? God spelled backwards is dog ya know... at Kerry's suggestion, I think I'll name my dog Jesus (say: hay-soos).... then when people ask why I named my dog that... well, you know.

OoooOoooOooo!!!
Check out the new Harry Potter trailer!!!! Oh my gosh, I can't wait to see it!!!! I will be there opening day... youuuu betchya...

PR
I set a new personal record yesterday for hours without sleeping, A whooping 38 hours. I'm quite proud of myself for not conking out earlier. But after having been awake from 8:30 the previous morning, I fell asleep in bed watching TV around 10/10:30ish and slept until 11 am this morning... 12.5 hours of sleep. Sweeettt. But now my sleep-schedule is all out of whack and I'm tired again. Oh well, such is the life of a college student.

Relay For Life
It's 12:38 right now and I've currently been awake for 30 hours, and am tired as what... But we raised around $55,000... WOOOTTT!!!!!! :-D
But a big thank you goes out to all of you who donated money to the cause and/or walked in the relay... you will never know how big of a difference you made in the fight against cancer...

Some food for thought

"Remember putting your face above a headless frame painted to represent a muscle man, a clown, or even a bathing beauty? Many of us have had our pictures taken this way, and the photos are humorous because the head doesn't fit the body. If we could picture Christ as the head of our local body of believers, would the world laugh at the misfit? Or would they stand in awe of a human body so closely related to a divine head?"
~Dan Bernard

Man, some people are just not the brightest. I was getting ready to leave for dinner when dani says "There's a fire outside, who do I call?" Now that's not something you hear every day. Lo and behold when I go outside to look, there's smoke and a small fire burning in the mulch by the steps. I just sorta stared at it for a second, and then Jessica snapped me out of it and said, "someone go get some water!" I ran inside to grab my nalgene and Ashley came with me and grabbed another water bottle that I had lying around and we put out the majority of the little fire before the firepeople got there.... haha, talk about empowering ;)

ahhh!!! I won a 8X10 autographed picture of Jars of Clay from Jarchives.com, a Jars of Clay fan site.... sweet!!!

"You have it easily in your power to increase the sum total of this world's happiness now. How? By giving a few words of sincere appreciation to someone who is lonely or discouraged."
~Dale Carnegie, author

... just a litte reminder that everyone can make a difference ...

For some truely stupid humor go to: Ill Will Press, care of Jenn... :)

ps: The Fat-kins Diet is a must-watch

just a thought
When life gets you down and you're just absolutely convinced that the world sucks, get back to the basics. You're alive, you're breathing, and if you're reading this, then you are doing pretty well in terms of finances. More importantly, there are people that love you, and most importantly, a God that loves you. I firmly believe that most, if not all, things happen for a reason, so just take a step back and let things run their course. You'll eventually realize why such-and-such happened, and there's no point in worrying about it because there is nothing you can do to change it now. It terms of the world, it's not perfect, but you don't need me to tell you that. All I can and will tell you is live your life to the fullest, and don't take the little things in life for granted. Huzza huzza :)

One day, a man went to visit a church. He got there early, parked his car, and got out. Another car pulled up near and the driver got out and said,"I always park there! You took my place!" The visitor went inside for Sunday School, found an empty seat and sat down. A young lady from the church approached him and stated, "That's my seat! You took my place!" The visitor was somewhat distressed by this rude welcome, but said nothing. After Sunday School, the visitor went into the sanctuary and sat down. Another member walked up to him and said, "That's where I always sit! You took my place!" The visitor was even more troubled by this treatment, but still He said nothing. Later as the congregation was praying for Christ to dwell among them, the visitor stood up, and his appearance began to change. Horrible scars became visible on his hands and on his sandaled feet. Someone from the congregation noticed him and called out, "What happened to you?" The visitor replied, as his hat became a crown of thorns, and a tear fell from his eye, "I took your place."

A Running Commentary
70 Americans have died in Iraq this month. 70. 70 of our brother, sisters, mothers, fathers, teachers, and friends. How many more people are going to die before June 30th? The pull-out date that Bush has just announced. Who is going to run this Iraqi government that you will hand power over to on the 30th? ... okay, now you're just repeating yourself ... oooo, explain that Mr. President. How were you so wrong about how the Iraqis would greet us? Where is all of the oil that was supposed to pay for this war? Oh now the money from the oil is going to the Iraqis, which is completely fine with me, but then he was embellishing the truth when he said that some of the money would pay for our effort... Ahahaha, "Why have you never admitted any of your mistakes?" ... Blah blah blah, change the world, blah blah blah...

Happy Easter everyone! Or as Fr. Eugene said, Blessed Easter. As you spend your day eating chocolate and other yummy candy (as I am right now), just keep in mind the real reason why this day is blessed.

"For God so loved the world that He gave His only Begotton Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life."

"The duty of youth is to challenge corruption."
~Kurt Cobain

So Ker and I are watching Queer Eye for a Straight Guy on tv, and they're at the part of the show where they go to different stores to buy things, and guess where they go... THEY GO TO ALL OF MY STORES!!! Cosco... Bed Bath and Beyond.... The Garden State Plaza Mall!!! My mall!!! He even get's his hair cut where I got my hair done for Laura's Quincenera!!! How much fun is that?!?! Man, I don't know what I would have done if I went shopping and I saw the Fab 5... Ahhhhh... Okay, I'll stop being a spaz now :-D

I had a very strange feeling this morning when I woke up, a feeling of confusion. The first thought that I had was "Where am I?" It took a moment to realize that I thought I was home. While this all may seem really random, it actually sort of makes sense to me. Last night I wanted to go home so badly. Rather, I wanted to go to a place of comfort and security. As I was lying in bed trying to fall asleep, I was praying about all the troubles that were on my mind. I was praying that I would have the strength to trust God that everything would work out. I feel like that when I was sleeping, God heard my prayers and gave me the grace to get through the things that were, and still somewhat are, bothering me. I know there are many other possible explanations, but I truely feel like that's what happened. Call it coincidence if you want. But I'll call it love.

How far are you, how close am I
I know your words are true and I don't feel them inside
Still I believe you'll never leave
So where are you now

You're all I have, You're all I know
Your breath is breathing in my soul
Still I am gasping, aching, asking
Where are you now

Cause I just wanna be with You
I just want this waiting to be over
I just want to be with You
And it helps to know the Day is getting closer

Every minute takes an hour
Every inch feels like a mile
Til I won't have to imagine
And I finally get to see You smile

My journey's here, but my heart is There
So I dream and wait, and keep the faith, while You prepare
Our destiny, til You come back for me
Oh, please make it soon!

...

Every minute takes an hour
Every inch feel like a mile
Til I won't have to imagine
And I finally get to see You

Every minute takes an hour
Every inch feel like a mile
Til I won't have to imagine
And I finally get to see You smile
'Smile' by Chris Rice

Things seem so glum and blah right now. It needs to get sunny out again. Actually, I just want to go home. On the topic, have you ever felt the desire to go home, but you were already home? I've deduced that in those situations, the home that you feel pulled towards is God's home. Like heaven, or whatever you want to call it. I imagine that if you're in heaven... oh its just the ultimate feeling of comfort.... of bliss and happiness. Not from having material possessions, but just because God's love is clear and all surrounding up there... I'd like to imagine anyway.

So cute
Bad news: I had to wake up this morning at 8am.
Good news: I got to sing at a wedding! How fun is that? The Chamber singer's sang at Andy's brother's wedding this morning (Andy is our conductor by the way). The wedding was so quaint, in a really good way. It was a small ceremony, no huge bridal party, just a Maid of Honor and a Best Man. Ah, the Bride's dress (I think her name is Jen) was so gorgeous. It was so beautiful in its simplicity, and the veil was a non-traditional lacy piece of fabric that was perfect. It sort of reminded me of spanish-inspired veils that I have seen before. Anyways, the bride and the groom were so cute, ::grin:: you could tell that Patrick was so nervous when he was waiting for Jen to come down the aisle. Haha, the only thing that I didn't like so much were the readings that they picked... they were okay, but I don't think i'll pick them for my wedding... whenever the heck that will be anyway. I'm really glad that we were able to sing for them though, it was a great experience. Getting paid wasn't really too bad either...

Hahahaha... check this out....
http://www.local6.com/news/2968435/detail.html

late night inspiration...

As I rest against this cold, hard wall
Will you pass me by?
Will you criticize me as I sit and cry?
I had fought so hard and thought that all my battles had been won
Only to find the war has just begun

Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out, and start again
Is He not brave enough?
To take one chance on me
Please can I have one chance to start again?

Will my weakness for an hour
Make me suffer for a life time
Is there anyway to be made whole again?
If I'm healed, renewed and find forgiveness
Find the strength I've never had
Will my scars forever ruin all God's plan?

Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out, and start again
Is He not brave enough?
To take one chance on me
Please can I have one chance to start again?

He took my life into his hands and it turned it all around
In my most desperate circumstance
It's there I finally found

That You are strong enough
That You are pure enough
To break me, pour me out and start again
That You are brave enough
To take one chance on me
Oh Thank You for my chance to start again

'strong enough' by stacie orrico

"Maturity begins when we're content to feel we're right about something without feeling the necessity to prove someone else is wrong." ~Sydney J. Harris

hahaha
"There are only 10 types of people in this world- those who can read binary and those who cannot."

just a little computer geek humor for you...

stolen from laura...
"Someday someone will walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else." ~anon

The American Cancer Society's Relay For Life
"Relay For Life is the American Cancer Society’s signature activity. It unites millions of people in thousands of communities nationwide each year to raise money to help prevent cancer, save lives, and diminish suffering from the disease. Every dollar you [donate] makes a real difference to people whose lives are touched by cancer."
Sponser me!!!

Touring with Chamber Singers and Chorale was actually pretty fun. The performances could have gone better, but they weren't too bad. It was just fun spending time with Chambers people, they're all really fun and cool people. Let me tell you though, carrying heavy bags and sleeping awkwardly on buses are not condusive to your neck and shoulders feeling good. holding up semi-heavy choral folders did not help either. Me thinks that I should find a cheap massage place tomorrow and get a back rub.... mmm, that would be nice. But that would also require me waking up. Hahaha, I've deduced that I've only gotten four hours of sleep each night for approximately the past week. Crazy Times :) On to sleep for me now!

I still think its sorta disheartening how many divisions there are among Chrisitians. There seems to be so much tension between different groups here at college and all over the world. I guess we are all drawn to worship God in our own different ways. I wish that sometimes we could just throw aside all of our differences and worship together. I spent a few good hours of the day online looking at all of the larger inter-collegiate Christian groups out there. InterVarsity, Navigators, Campus Crusades, and countless others. All so similar, yet all different. Does PSF fit anywhere into any of these groups? Do I fit anywhere into these groups?
I discovered at the retreat, with the help of three great people, that I've been struggling with ideas of acceptance and other related topics recently. Acceptance among the secular community and acceptance among the Christian community. Someone said something that summed up to "God is your friend, and is always there for you." I already knew this, but hearing it from someone else that I respect really made it resonate in my mind and heart. I feel like this is something that I still struggle with so much. I know that He's always there, but I am still continually looking for approval from everyone else in the world. I think it comes down to an issue of trust.
Why can't I trust God with my whole heart? I desperately want to. As in all relationships, I guess it's just one of those things that you have to work on and will improve over time.

"Take my world apart... for I want to know You more...."

Oh man, another great concert by Jars of Clay....
Me, Stace, V, and I went to the Jars of Clay concert tonight at Avalon. So great... so great. JoC had two special guests, Steve Dolopolous (i hope I'm spelling that right), and Maeve, a trio of women plus a percussionist. Steve was good, haha, he was so funny. I'm also in awe of his finger picking technique, it was quite cool. Heehee, as we were leaving, I saw him walking towards his van/car/etc, so I yelled out "Steve! Good job tonight!" and he actually answered me, ::biggrin:: it was quite cool. Maeve was really good too, their harmonies were great. Andy actually knows one of the women in the band.
Jars of Clay came on around 9:45 and rocked the stage until 11:30/11:45ish... they were so awsome. It was really cool because they did a few songs that are less well-known but still great like Tea and Sympathy and they also did a great rendition of Freebird by Lynard Skynard. Lets see, what other songs did they do... Crazy Times, Flood, The Valley Song, Show You Love, Revolution, Amazing Grace... and a bunch of other songs that I can't really remember right now. I'll update if I can to see if I can remember the complete set list. For their encore, they performed Worlds Apart, and then finished up with Love Song for a Saviour. I would have preferred if they performed the last two songs in reverse order, but still fabulous encore songs. I'm just remembering the last JoC concert that I went to where the ended with Worlds Apart, it was only Dan and Steve on stage (or Matt, I can't remember that well), and Dan and Steve slowly left the stage and the audience was still singing... so great... it was really powerful, to be cliche. It always gets me when I see tons of people lifting their hands in praise... :)

ps: okay, now I know that this is really in advance, but there's a JoC concet on May 22, 2004 in Bethleham, PA... anyone want to go? ;) :)

Next year: Wren 245

My new mission: get housing in Carmichael HL or anywhere in Carmie... I hoping that if I request special housing accomodations because of my asthma and allergies, I can pull of a minor miracle of sorts... we shall see. ResLife, here I come!

      grr... don't you hate when you second guess yourself on tests and then end up being right the first time? Oh well, just teaches me to go with my instincts... haha, I never do seem to learn though :) Oh well.
      In other news, we reserve our rooms for next year tonight. Guess what my registration time is... 10:25pm!!! can you believe it? it sucks quite a bunch. Kerry and I are just banking on the fact that Carmie Healthy Living won't go to quickly....

face lost in a crowd
feet wondering empty streets
voice crying out loud
heart aching with every beat

someone searching
searching for someone
everywhere and endlessly
wishing waiting
could there be someone searching for
someone searching

soul battered and bruised
cry wounded left for death
ears deaf to good news
eyes tear drenched in sleepless red

someone searching
searching for someone
everywhere endlessly
wishing waiting
could there be someone searching for
someone searching

oh I hear their cries
and I know the pain
can it be denied
that everyone has been and will be
someone searching

love standing alone
hands scared by the nails of hate
hope suffering gone
faith urging that its not to late

someone searching
searching for someone
everywhere and endlessly
loving longing
always theres someone searching for
someone searching

searching for someone
everywhere and endlessly
loving longing
always theres someone searching for
someone searching

someone searching.