that's annoying...
someone just chucked an ice cream cone at my AC... now why would you do that? a snowball is fine, but ice cream gets sticky and what not... punks...

Friday Five
You have just won one million dollars:
1. Who do you call first?
My parents and then my sister.
2. What is the first thing you buy for yourself?
Hmmm... if it was right now, I would buy myself a guitar. Does anyone know where I can get a cheap one? (think under $75... in can be used and not in hot condition... but still pretty decent) Or maybe a really good laptop... yeah, that would be next. Oh... but does paying off all of my tuition count as buying something for myself? Because if it does, that would definitely prempt everything.
3. What is the first thing you buy for someone else?
Mmmm... I'd like to say a new car for my parents because our red van is getting pretty shabby.
4. Do you give any away? If yes, to whom?
Of course! I'd probably give some money to my relatives in the Philippines to help take care of my lolo and lola, and then I'd give money to some charities.... possible St. Francis' Inn, Compassion, Red Cross, Doctors Without Borders, etc.
5. Do you invest any? If so, how?
I would have to be a stupid person not to invest any of it. I'd probably put some money in CDs and whatnot.

excuse my moment of self-pity there, haha, everyone must get it out of their system once in a while though :) You wanna hear good news? haha, I have a ton!
1. I think I found a guitar for only $50, ain't that sweet?
2. My ASL class rocks like no other.
3. For all intensive purposes its thursday (there are only 3.5 more hours left for wed) which means that tomorrow is friday... trans= the weekend!
4. I only have one class tomorrow, philosophy.
5. I get to sing tomorrow with talented people.
6. I'm going home for president's day weekend.
7. My computer isn't virus infested anymore.
8. I don't have to do reports for my geo labs.
9. I found some new potential majors that look really cool.
10. GOD is great.

...isn't life just yummy?

bah
life is poop right now. I don't know why I insist on trying out for things when I know that I'm not going to get in. It's like self torture. Well anyways, would you like to know what I was pondering at 3:30 this morning? Well I'm going to tell you. I've heard people say that it's better to do one thing and be good at it than do a lot of things and be okay at them. This being said I realized why I do a lot of different things... Cause I'm not really good at anything! I'm okay at things, but not great. Soccer... hahaha, singing... yeah right, dancing... obviously not, school... look at my sucky GPA... baaaaaahhhhhh. AND and I don't have any clue of what I want to do in life. How am I supposed to pick what classes to take if I don't have a general direction to go in! Harumph. I think I'm going to go crawl in a hole now so go away. Well first excuse my rudeness and negativity. It's a phase. Alright, now go away.

"Words make you think a thought. Music makes you feel a feeling. A song makes you feel a thought."
-- E. Y. Harburg, composer
*to all my fellow singers and musicians out there... everyone wonderings why we're always humming or tapping out some unknown beat... now they know.

Me me me me me....
Jules and I went to go see La Calisto tonight performed by NEC at the Cutler Majestic Theater. It was actually pretty good... I wasn't wowed or anything, but I think that's because I have really high standards. Shrug, what can you do? It was still good though. And pretty cheap... only $12. I thought the counter-tenor role and the woman who played Diana had the best voices. Some other people had good voices, I just think that the roles that they played weren't in their tessituras (optimum range). Major props to the alto who kicked butt in the opening scene though... Jules and I have decided that we are definitely going back when they perform Mozart's Magic Flute, I've been wanting to see that opera for such a long time, the songs are soooo pretty... alas, if I only had that good of a voice ;)

Friday Five
At this moment, what is your favorite...
1. ...song?
Hmm... I honestly don't know... probably something by Jars of Clay.... I have Mozart's Requiem stuck in my head right now though, does that count?
2. ...food?
ceaser salad... yummy :)
3. ...tv show?
Alias all the way!!!
4. ...scent?
Hmmm... the smell of clothes right out of the dryer... or coolwater :) it's a toss up
5. ...quote?
"Preach the Gospel at all times and when necessary use words." ~St. Francis

whew
oye. I did a decent work out today for the first time in... wow, forever... I'm sorely out of shape, its quite bad. I ran on the treadmill today for 22 minutes and only did 2.1 miles. pathetic. I really think that's a bad representation of my fitness though. Haha, my excuse is that I was atleast always running at a 3.0 incline.One of the reasons why I dislike running on treadmills, etc. is because its more dificult to increase or decrease your speed. When you're running on your own outside or on a track, I feel like it's easier to push yourself. It's easier to kick those last few hundred or so meters. ::Shrug:: I remember when I ran around campus before break (i think its about a 2 mile run) It took me less than 15 minutes. I can't wait until it gets warm and dry enough so I can run outside without giving myself an asthma attack. Anyone wanna come running? :) Hehehe... oh! I did do an ab workout with Anu at the gym though, haha, she was about to kill me. I'd like to do more next time though... at least I don't feel like a complete bum anymore :)

Sweet
Woohoo!! I am so happy! I only spent $200 buying all of my text books this semester! That included 4 text books and a packet of photocopied readings... :D I got all of my books used, but they're all in good condition.... the amount of money they expect us to pay for new books is ridiculous anyway.

"We don't see things as they are, we see things as we are."
~Anais Nin

I feel like I've changed from the person that I was a week or two ago, but I can't put that change into words. My experience at St. Francis has changed my outlook on life quite dramatically, to say the least. Right now, I sorta feel like I don't particularly fit in any where. Well, no, I do fit in places, it's just that everything just seemed to go so right at the Inn. Life was so... simple there. That's what the Fransicans aim for anyway, and it worked. Wake up, eat, mass, work, lunch, work/serve, dinner, bible study/discusion, sleep. With lots of time to just relax thrown in there too.
Now don't get me wrong, I love being home. I love being back with my 'rents again and having my own bed and yummy food. And spending time with all of my teaneckians is great too. I have spent my entire life with these people and they know me better than anyone. But sometimes I feel like the religious part of me doesn't fit in with everyone back here. Most of my friend back at home grew up with me as a girl who went to church just because her parents told her to, and now I go to mass on weekdays by myself. It's not like they haven't seen this part of my life before, after all I did start to become more active in my faith during sophomore year, but I think I was more of one of those types of people that had a "social self" and a "church self." I still sorta do that, but I would rather not. It's such a big part of me that I dislike pushing it to the side when I'm with people.
As for Tufts, I don't really know how the Inn has changed my life there since I haven't gone back yet. I think school will be fine though. Haha, Kerry and Julie and everyone has dealt with me fine so far, and all of the PSFers are back at Tufts too. (Well, except for Lizzie and Rachel who are extreemly lucky and are in Espana right now.) Hmm... only time will tell. Right now I'll just take it step by step.

As you all know I went to Philly this past week on a service retreat with PSF. We went to this place in Kensington (north philly) called St. Francis' Inn. The Inn is essentially a soup kitchen that's open 7 days a week. There are really no words to accurately describe what we all experienced this past week. I can just say that it was extremely humbling, and it was a life changing experience. God is at work everywhere, in everything we do, and in everyperson we meet. I would be glad to expand on my past week to anyone, it's just a lot to put into words.

"For it is in giving that we receive." ~ St. Francis
"Preach the Gospel at all times and when necessary use words." ~ St. Francis
"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven." ~ Jesus

It's already Jan 2nd and I haven't really made any resolutions yet. Is there really a point to making them though? Well... I'm all for making goals for yourself, but why wait till a specific point in time? Once you know you're goals, there's no time like the present to make it happen...
One last little note, I'll be out of town from the 3rd to the 9th, so ring my cell if you really need me. ta ta everyone!