I feel like I've changed from the person that I was a week or two ago, but I can't put that change into words. My experience at St. Francis has changed my outlook on life quite dramatically, to say the least. Right now, I sorta feel like I don't particularly fit in any where. Well, no, I do fit in places, it's just that everything just seemed to go so right at the Inn. Life was so... simple there. That's what the Fransicans aim for anyway, and it worked. Wake up, eat, mass, work, lunch, work/serve, dinner, bible study/discusion, sleep. With lots of time to just relax thrown in there too.
Now don't get me wrong, I love being home. I love being back with my 'rents again and having my own bed and yummy food. And spending time with all of my teaneckians is great too. I have spent my entire life with these people and they know me better than anyone. But sometimes I feel like the religious part of me doesn't fit in with everyone back here. Most of my friend back at home grew up with me as a girl who went to church just because her parents told her to, and now I go to mass on weekdays by myself. It's not like they haven't seen this part of my life before, after all I did start to become more active in my faith during sophomore year, but I think I was more of one of those types of people that had a "social self" and a "church self." I still sorta do that, but I would rather not. It's such a big part of me that I dislike pushing it to the side when I'm with people.
As for Tufts, I don't really know how the Inn has changed my life there since I haven't gone back yet. I think school will be fine though. Haha, Kerry and Julie and everyone has dealt with me fine so far, and all of the PSFers are back at Tufts too. (Well, except for Lizzie and Rachel who are extreemly lucky and are in Espana right now.) Hmm... only time will tell. Right now I'll just take it step by step.