early morning musings
sometimes i wish that i were a really selfish person that didn't care about anyone elses feelings... only myself. that way i would always be happy... but i guess bad times only make the good times better... I realized a long time ago that the world does not revolve around me, and it never will. I can only take this as they come at me.. and during the course of my 17 years on this earth, I've found that I have an incredible amount of strength. Don't really know where that came from.. or actually it must have come from God, because He is the only one that can hold me up in times of despair...oh, i'm sounding so great right now... I don't know why I am posting this for all the world to see.. this is my search for sympathy. can anyone really understand what's going through my head though? not really. there is a big possibility that this post will get deleted, we will just have to see. you know.. I once heard that If you love something, let it go. If it comes back, it's yours. If it doesn't, it never really was yours in the first place... i guess we'll just have to see...