i have so many questions... so many "whys" and "how comes" ... unfortunately, or fortunately, they will probably never be asked. insted they will live forever in my mind, to be dwelled on over and over again. see, thats why things always get to me more than they should... because it takes a really long time for me to let things go, which is probably one of the worst flaws that i have. flaws. i think i have a lot of those...
you know you're in deep shit when you have that feeling at the back of your throat... and you know that it's going to come out sooner or later... but you're working as hard as you can to just make it go away.
I'm almost 100% positive that i've decided to go back to my previous stance about dating and really really try to stick with is this time. if you have no idea what my previous stance was.. then ask me.. because its not getting written here. too many people disagree with me for it to be written here. It really makes perfect sense to me.. but then again, i'm not a normal teenager... or at least I like to think that I'm not.
and a final thing to all my girlfriends... you gals are the best.. i love how i can not really say anything, but you still know whats wrong... i love how we can get together looking like shit, and we won't care... i love how we can have entire conversations just by looking at eachother.. and i love how we will always be there for eachother... we will always have someone to gossip with, a shoulder to cry on, someone to drive around with, a person to dance with, and memories that will never fade...